BLOGGIE TWO - FANTASY

BYE FOR NOW! :)))

2005-04-02T11:20:00.000-08:00

I HAVE MOVED !! =))

feelings hidden forever

2005-04-02T10:17:00.000-08:00

feelings hidden will never be revealed `

i guess i will never say even if i know how you'r feeling cox there is a wall in between and that wall is permenant... so wad if we both forget.. the cut in ur heart will alwaes be there.. i dun wan a repeated story like e previous.. after hurting her .. we still continue and den in e end both get hurt..

why am i feeling this way
why!?
urghh` =/

SOMEBODY WAKE ME UP
HELP ME OUT!
ARGHH`

i miss her terribly

2005-04-02T09:21:00.000-08:00

what if i still love her [ which i tink i still do ]
what if i still want her
what if i wanna have her back
what if .......

Sooo many "What If's" in my head but she will never know wad im feeling.. i know wad she is feeling cox i somehow know but she will never know.. that big mean ass ask me to tell her.. would i?! i tink i never will.. till the day she let go.. i still wont.. and tt will be when i regret badly.. but i alwaes regret in e end so no difference to me.. just like it be ... So many "her" around.. she wont tink im toking bout her ba.. cox she feels e hurt still n she tink i dun... perharps i have felt but no one will know either.. nth much more to say.. anyway. i just have this urge to tell her but den im typing all here for no use.. wad crap manx.. haishh`.. *tsk..

im sorrie

woke up rather early.. cox i slept at eleven.. was so tired.. i ve gave it a thought.. im not gonna claim my church badge and im not gonna do my church badge reviews anymore.. did one mth last mth.. e next deadline is monday n im not gonna do.. too rush n wad 4 i do!? im not gonna exist for long in tt Cca.. everytym i tell pple.. they gib tt look.. like whu cares..!? dey r havin a beta life in e cca.. would they even noe wad gerfren n me r going thru.. being taken like some fuckers by e officers..!? whu gibs a damn.. when one day it happens to dem den they ll knw.. im short of one badge to claim e pioneer thing but whu cares...?! n nw if i dun do e reviews.. i cant get e church badge either so my project wrk will b a waste too.. and overall..i ll b short of 2badges.. haha but like whu cares..!? when i leave e sch.. i also wun go n look at my uni n count e badges also.. like.. badge oni.. rank oni.. very big meh!?? *tsk tsk.. aniwae to get my attendance pass nxt yr.. im oni appearing when there is no drill and there is no full.u ... yuppies. =)) planning for e future.. wahahas...

i dunno wad im gonna do today.. the exams r drawing nearer.. hmm.. shall complete all e over-dued wrk first.. wahahas.. =/

`i just gotta forget all those thinking cox no one will know
not even her

im crying inside n no one knows

2005-04-01T22:05:00.000-08:00

` a BAD day but also a GOOD day ..

Lots to say but den i dunno what to type out.. i feel like crying now.. =/ i saw sumbodie and i feel smth but den who will know wad im feeling.. i shall just shut n not say anything.. who will know?! no one will know.. i doubt she ll know anyway...

alrights woke up at 5+ this mrng den my hair just wanted my life.. so hard to style den wanted cut myself den too hard to cut so just kept styling ... haha mrng was horrible but lucky aft awhile..okay ler.. hehe.. =) den i met matt and becca nearby den matt din noe she had duty so she left in her fren's car while becca n me took e bus.. was late.. reached yiochukang at 730 when we were supposed to be at e stadium but nvm la.. everyone was late anw.. haha. if i knew the stadium well enuff.. i would ve came at 11+.. anyone could.. arghh` e meet was so boring n hot...!! yuen did e cheer leading dance n it was nice! hehe.. we were screamin so loud for her.. lol.. den nana n me got chased bk to our hse many tyms n there was this sickenin sec2 np gal who is fucking rude.. i knw her fucking name too.. she sux.. she hit nana so hard den still stare n so rude.. we couldnt even bother man.. haha.. den another sec2 frm my hse.. stare n diao summore.. den nana n me go di-siao her.. she cum diao winnie den cum diao me.. so i plaed paper canes wid her.. i kept throwin over her n all.. den she wan stare but dun dare to look den nana n me jus kept disturbing her.. some ASS.. haha. The meet was rather boring den kept moving frm LEE to my hse n up dwn wid nana.. haha. den went walkin wid her during e meet.. walked round n round.. we could ve just left.. e stadium is like open up!? wah .. just take e bus n go hme also kanx.. lol.. den heard gt spotcheck so hid my fone ... and topid weiling wanna prank me but den i din fall for it.. haha. =)

went home wid jaime after that.. den headed to PS.. bought the tix and saw wanchung n all.. den went spotlight and i decided wad i wanna wear on sec4'fw ler.. hehe and i tink e spotlight ppl tink im MAD. lol`... shh* shall not say.. hahaha. and my legs were fricking pain the entire day! due to yst's run... its aching badly n i ve difficulty in moving... wahahhas... =/ den went to eat n chatted n i saw a GHOST.. haha like real.. just some bitch who i alwaes seem to see when i go town or where ever.. SUAY AH! lol.. anw i saw her twice.. hmm. aft eating den went walking arnd den went in for e movie.. *great*.. haha.. lurve it manx.. haha. den was freezing cold inside.. hehe.. went toilet aft tt n i kept announcing tt my hair is in gd condition.. lol cox it wasnt messy.. wahahhas.. headed for neos .. it turned out great n nice! i love all TWELVE fotos!! haha.. but den oni chose four.. haishh`.. den went buy dearie's pressie.. tt pervertic weilan.. hmm.. couldnt decide wad to get but den got smth in e end.. and joce bought a reali cute tortoise for sum1 i din reali like lar.. so cute kan! i wanna buy it too.. hehe. den went looking arnd n trying out things .. i couldnt reali play arnd cox of my hair.. =/ hmm den i met her after tt.. waited n everyone complained.. lol not my fault mah.. N her fren gave me a shock kanx.. haha. den asked her fren where she was but den her own fren also dunno cox she went missing!?? how lame.. haha. den jaime n von was sooooo interested to see her!? haha.. so we "chasing" aft her.. n she tink she running marathon?! run like so fast 4wad.. den jaime make me "zhui" aft her just to see her face?! haha den she ran away so von n dang went one way n i tink she saw dem n she ran e other way n came in our direction n i tink i scared her?! hmm Sorrie!! =) yeah and she is still as cold towards me as normally.. usually.. hmm nvm. yupps. enuff of running den we went to shop arnd den joce saw her n i said hi but den she gt another shock!? err.. like. nvm .. haix. den we went shopping n lookin for my shoes n all... von had to go soon so we went to buy smth den left.. =) was tinking lots on my way home.. guess oni mummie noes.. hmm. haishh! ...

i just read sum drafts.. guess u should knw im referring to you.. cox oni u ll let me see those drafts.. wahahas. anw ppl jio u den go for it lar.. shuai ge.. hehe. all de best! and i hardly say wat im tinkin inside to pple unless they r my v.close buddies.. so.. yar dun blame urself.. tc! *loves..

i love u*
but do u* know?!

` feeling terrible inside but who knows ...

verge of tears but who knows?!

2005-03-31T21:52:00.000-08:00

`VERGE OF TEARS! =/

Alrights just finally said everything out but of cox not here.. hmm.. im tired of everything.. im sick of everything.. arghh!` aniwae why must it be U!? i just dunno why.. haishh .... im just tired of everything that concerns u2! just fark off!!` hmm.. shall go to sleep.. urghh!`

*Memories cant be bought
It is precious so please treasure it`

im searching for that sumbodie*
can i meet my angel* in heaven
PLEASEEEE! =)

im back in THURSDAY WORLD! wahahas...

2005-03-31T18:24:00.000-08:00

im having a bad bad bad headache once again.... urghh` =/ took my sweet time to school tis mrng and i reali feel like just cutting my hair off... im too lazy to style it lar kanx... but i stil prefer it styled.. both way also kan but still.. urgh nvm. lol`.. newae heard there ll b a spot check nxt wk n i just gotta wish myself a very gd luck!! =) anw e VP is funny lar.. we were laughin during e pledge due to pui's badge den she come n tok to us n jus said 1 sentence.. dun do it agn...?! hahahha.. lucky its her n nt e big bird.. or else we sure get long nag manx.. haha. and e VP came to us when we were supposed to go to her.. hahaha...

lessons were alright.. just felt a lil tired n all... did 2.4km in e park todae.. 7 rounds but i almost died.. =/ was wid dang den later ran wid becca all e way.. arghh` and i tink im havin a headache cox of PE.. hmm ... oh den ONG was happy tt i did a lil art.. haha.. it was done during e hols.. haha.. she tot i did it durin e wkend den she so happi... wahahas.. =) den had a talk dat lasted for one hr plus.. haha. funny larh.. yupp..

had drill after school.. very slack but still i very tired.. anw i m not gg for conference n pui is gg alone i tink...=) anw miss ho saw me agn n she asked me wad kind of attire m i wearing.. hmm like i care!?? haha. left wid janice rach n all... den was bullyin rachel all e way.. poured a bottle full of water on her... hehe. and she whack me so hard... haha. den went central and ate n ate n ate.. another food spree! hehe.. btw e sec4fw'nite theme is royalty.... wad should gerfren n i be!? we r partners this yr agn! i lurve my gerfren jacx! ... hehe=) tmr has no school... but gotta wake up earlier.. haishh`.. going out aft sport's day tmr... hehe.. and i got money tmr cox i lied.. oops* ... lalalala` and guess im gonna meet her to collect my art.. i dunno?! hmm... and im finally watchin movie agn.. hehe..

its THURSDAY! but... nvm lar.. im livin in wed's world... haha

2005-03-30T23:57:00.000-08:00

blogger sucks! i din blog for a day and when i wanted blog.. there's probs.. arghh`guess i mux come bk den.. tatas... this is note pad btw.. lol..

reason y i din blog cox was sick yst [`tues].. cant reali rmb wad happen yst.. funny day i tink... maths was hilarious and ...... haha.. oh yesh and i had stupid drill..and that stupid bitch came ... and my head was spinning like shit den i stil went to eat macs den aft tt came home and slept at 8 all e way till todae mrng.. *shiok. =)))

saw debbie on my way hme and caught up wid her a lil... hehe and dun worry i ll fix a tagboard soon!? i guess so and u kan tag all u wan. wahaha

todae was so energetic in e mrng.. so awake.. haha met jaime den happen to see matt.. den went sch tgh.. and i saw tt topid seah! eww.. =/ sch was alright.. supposed to have 2.4km but den din..guess its tmr... arghh` and e bad news is.. nxt wk i ll ve to see ONG for 4 str8 days.. tues all e way to fridae and i din evendo art... like 20 over sketches... she kan jus go n die... btw thnx to that sweetie* who is helpin me draw... thnx.ilu* hehehe... =) hmm.. lessons was alright.. and that bitch Np officer.. scold me for nth.. she even tel me she wana go complain to my form tr and i told her go ahead.. i even gave her my name n class.. =) who cares. im nt wrong.. if im nt wrong or even if im.. i kan jus argue my way thru.. whu gives a damn manx.. all thnx to tt topid dearie of mine... btw thnx phoebe.. anw tt ass has no brains.. whose reaction is WUN scream one..?! dare to ask me why i scream n i dun nid to.. why nt she let me try out on her!? asshole.. brainless asshole.. fuckin bitch. waahahahas.. =)) had no bio again den clique was playing game all e way.. all so lame.. lol`

went town aft sch.. i saw someone agn b4 leavin sch.. hehe. aniwae went out wid my gerfren.. haha and a siao zha bo... whu kept laughin to herself on e bus and whu made us miss ebus.. hahaha... e bus was nuts... there were 4 buses so we of cox din walk all e way till e 4th bus so we waited for him to drive infrnt and he just zoom pass us... wth..lol` how topid... hahha.. ate long john den i shared wid my gerfren a meal which she claim she cant finish ... its like... how small... err make me so hungry 4 nth.. haha den went to shop... hehe. walked all arnd.. den couldnt find den went elsewhere... den aft tt went to eat ice cream.. lol.. den when heeren and see e stuff den went take neos..i very long like neva take le leh.. haha but nvm its nice.. =) and we were crazee.. and tt siao zha bo was like kip makin me laugh... hahaha... she is a good shopper..! =) hahaden left arnd going to 7 ler... and i sneaked in n out of e mrt.. close shave at somerset.. i no money in e card so cant blame.. im broke n i ve no money to buy my lens nxt mth..help sumbodie... =/ perharps i ll go blind.. wahahhas..

i got a Chem test tmr on sec3 wrk... just wish me an early death.. i cant even rmb wad isit all about.. im soooo unfamiliar wid e notes... =/ i cant wait for e long wkend! *yeah..oh and yes.. gb agn tmr! 24days more.. jacx n me r counting dwn... lalaalala` i cant wait till i graduate.. and then ms ho kan see how true i am to her promises... how guai im gonnabe... urghh` i am not gonna care liaox.. lol`.. why mux i change my attire for her and why mux i be nice to her!? neva manx... wahahhas... hypocrite! =) yes..my aim is to make them howmuch effort they claim they ve put in has all gone to waste and i wan dem to b disappointed.. wahhaha i feel mean. she kan nag all she wans ..nth goes into my head 4 goodness sake.lol`=)

im up on my own ; and no one kan make me fall `

2005-03-28T22:52:00.000-08:00

alrights off to bed soon ; i guess.. last night couldnt even fall asleep.. took some tym to.. oh well.. i dun care who is SO free to go and get me into this shit but listen up.. if its you or not.. i dun care.. i dun ve SO much free tym like you to come after you.. its just a lesson i can learn.. thats all.. anw back to topic.. there is NO proof.. so come on and get me into this shit.. but firstly im not involved.. so wad fucking rights you got to drag me in?! you can say i do this n tat.. but do you ve Proof? i haven even do den you alr go tell everyone.. wah so smart of you lar kanx.. thank you for all ur smartness. i guess you r just one dumb bitch .. thats all i kan say about you. if you r not smart den dun act smart.. =/ aniwae im prepared for that "sharon talk" .. come on bitch.. wad else kan she say.. and that seah! wad a funny reaction she has.. lol` yes! she knows my full name damn well.. to think im so famous to her.. oh wadever manx! i knw the officers ll start their gossiping sooner or l8r.. oh well , 25days more to go!! *yeahs.. im counting down.. and i cant wait to leave and i cant be bothered wad tt lin is gonna say to me.. same old words.. like.. Hello!? my life leh and u ppl think u ve e right to rule.. think she great.. i tok to hr nicely n she say i rude to her.. i kan be rude if i wan ... oh wadeva lar.. =) when e tym comes then more will appear here.. why bother bout such pple.. known as brainless fools?! hmm...

" such people r not worth a single fraction of my time.. " --> i lurve this phrase.. she told me last time.. her phrase and i am using it.. LOL` i miss the tyms.. haha.

TATAS!`
=) a great day ahead for ME*..
im a HAPPY SOUL ..

before i end off .....
- a circle consists one person ;
- a heart consists of two person ;
- a triangle consists of three person ;
- a square consists of four person ;
such a lame logic.. my dear's logic .. we were tokin bout it todae.. smth liddat.. guess im the circle.. wahahahs. i rather live a life alone. why choose the unhappy route.. im much happier alone.. =) or maybe perharps for nowww` lalalala`

what to start ?????

2005-03-28T16:49:00.000-08:00

alrights i couldnt wake up todae again.. and i told jaime not to wait cox i decided not to rush but take my own swt tym.. left my hse arnd 645 den took a slow walk to e bus stop..lucky i din miss e bus.. =) den went sch slowly.. e 315 wasnt crowded anymore.. haha. and i stepped on tt guy's shoe twice for gdness sake.. so paiseh.. oops* knew i was about to be late but i still strolled.. tt walk into sch was like so long.. lucky i saw jas so i walked fast wid her den suddenly turned behind n saw gerfren.. like ghost like tt.. so scary.. suddenly appear.. oh wadeva. lolx.. anw we werent even late for gdness sake.. todae's assembly started late so heng for me.. hehe.. and i like yuen's tail.. e first look was so cute! hehe.. =) had assembly n all.. was trying to hide frm big bird n avoid singin e anthem but den yuen kept moving.. haha. yuen was so... *obvious* .. at 1st von n me were waiting 4 her in e hall den suddenly saw her happily followin behind sumbodie... summore saw behind tt sumbodie.. haha she still claimed tt she din follow.. lol.. tt stupid cassandra sat beside us den kept tapping yuen every min 4 no reason n disturbing me when i was tryin to study secretly.. how lame.. =/lessons were okie.. chinese n lit was topid.. [lit`].. ms ho toked bout love.. olivia n her topid love.. makin me turn n stare at dear den we2 started laughin.. den i made dear laugh 4 no reason so loudly cox i was makin sum topid noise den ms ho asked her wad she was laughin.. so of cox dear kept quiet den ms ho force her to ans e ques on love.. tt topid ques.. i jus kept laughin.. and playin wid e topid spoilt pencil n dear had to laugh at me so ms ho kept forcin her to ans.. well ; i was tokin to my pencil.. =) wahahas.... im so mean to get her into "trouble" ... lol`.. [chinese`] i was busy eating and yuen just kept disturbing me.. haha. and i fell asleep during english.. had sucha nice sleep manx.. till e topid bell had to ring n thu-thu had to start toking.. =/ btw, i saw sumbodie ... lol.. waited for von after school den i was supposed to tell jaime smth but kip got interuption.. had to repeat 13tyms for goodness sake! LOL`...headed to central.. checked e price for my lens.. den went to buy food. -home-

still got Gb tmr.. how stupid and lame.. alrights im gonna see how those pple screw out.. lol` i shall not name who.. but i just hate n dislike that fucking hypocrite.. =/ countdown*25days.. hehe.. btw, im going on a food spree tmr.. wid my mouse i guess and night-stead.. haha.. i wanna eat and eat n eat! hehe.. =) okays.. i got a test tmr.. CIAO!`

Have I ?!

2005-03-27T21:17:00.000-08:00

BACK AGAIN!! ~ lalalala`
alrights im Not in a good mood now.. i just feel like fucking the entire world upside down! urghh`.. why am i thinking so much!? why am i affected.. arghh...

To: yOuuuu` ~

Have I been avoiding her!? No..
Do I wanna ignore her for life!? No..
Do I wanna forget who she is from now onwards and treat her like a stranger!? No..
Why keep saying things bad bout urself!?
Why say Ur fine!? Alrights u may be ; perharps im just thinking too much den =/
Why claim Ur useless!? Ur not ..

Alrights ;
Oh fine.. wadever it is then ...
i just hope you are fine ...
take care and cheer up =)

a reply to 08 ;

2005-03-27T17:35:00.000-08:00

Just one simple reason why im here..
` saying my thoughts out and hoping she will see them.. like i told joce ; i dunno how to face her anymore.. i dunno wad to do anymore.. im sorrie but sorrie wun cure her pain and hurt.. i cant do anything at all..anymore.. i dun even ve the fucking courage to send a msg.. cox i tink that ll make her feel worse.. yeah.. im sorrieee ..

to someone i really ought to say SORRIE to ....
` i hurted you tym again and again.. i dunno what i can say to make you feel better.. im seriously sorrie.. and i mean it.. i dunno wad had happened yst but still i can see your hurt deeply..i dunno wad i can do to make you feel better.. sorrieee.. yeah your right.. i ve been reading all those drafts .. all along .. and i seriously dunno how to make you feel better.. perharps avoiding you forever ll be my plan to make you feel better.. take care. all de best. Loves* i will be always here for you` =)

i caused her to fall. im sorrie 08 -

2005-03-27T15:02:00.000-08:00

i caused her to become like this ;
what else can i say ;
nothing - im sorry

slept at 2+ yst.. was doing all my wrk and now im left with some that i think im able to complete by today.. nite stead n i were listing all e names dwn tt we r giving on fw'night .. but i ve this feelin tt i left someone out.. who isit?! i dunno.. haha. hope i dun leave anyone i know out.. =) i cant wait for 22/4 .. countdown*26days more to go.. lol` i hope we can book a chalet.. heh ..

i gotta do many things :
[ ] newspaper articles for S.S
[ ] bible review for april month. due on 4th.
[ ] read twelfth night
[ ] study chem. acids salts bases.
[ ] maths and science 10-yr series.

i cannot wait for friday when i can finally relax once again.. tmr is a new week again.. last week of march ler.. so fast 1/4 of the year has passed by.. urghh` i hate the feeling of exams r drawing near.. =/ i just wished that it will be a four day week den i can relax for 3days huh.. lolx .. i cant wait to go shopping too.. =) lalalalala` .. aniwae i ve 2 tests next week .. i can do it [i hope] ..

CIAO!
=)

a new day //- smths r still bothering me =/

2005-03-27T01:33:00.000-08:00

alrights a brand new day but smths r still bothering me.. =/
why am i feeling sad?!
i have decided to leave her alone forever ..
perharps it ll be better.. im sorrie

alrights i completed my maths hwk and my tuition hwk.. and i finally found sum kind soul willing to help me do art.. hehe =) THNX.. aniwae just now while doing maths.. i did the wrong question.. after writing so long den i realise.. how topid.. urghh` im affected by sooo many things!! wake up! wake up! arghh`... =/ i feel like crying all of sudden.. hmm.. still not sleeping yet but lucky i got night-stead as company.. =) heh .. shall go and read twelfth night or else i kan just die.. i dun understand e book at all.. rahh` and i gotta do sum newspaper reviews tmr for S.S .. that has been delayed for like 2ks alr.. lucky there is no fri lesson for nxt wk also.. heh x)

anyway i ve counted.. i left 26days in this farking cca!! countdown* lol` im not gg for company camp so i cant pei winnie.. =/ and i am not re-taking D.I also.. im not doing alot of things.. i ve had enuff! i need POISON! i wanna kill that fucking HO. and LIN. !!! bitchs.fuckers.//- lol` =)

off`
ilu*

to #05.. exactly wad i wanna express to you

2005-03-26T22:37:00.000-08:00

Got this from somewhere.. it exactly says my thoughts out.. it was exactly wad i wanted to say or rather express mths back..

Here we are at the crossroads once again
U're telling me ure so confused
You cant make up your mind

Is this meant to be,
u're asking me
But only love can say -
Try again or walk away
But i believe for you and me
The sun will shine one day
So i'll just play my part
And pray u ll have a change of heart

But i cant make you see it through
Thats something only love can do
I've tried my best to make you see
There's hope beyond the pain

If we give enough,
if we learn to trust
I know if i could find the words
To touch you deep inside
U'd give our dream just one more chance
Dont let this be our last goodbye

` the answer is finally i gotta say goodbye

to #08 -

2005-03-26T21:11:00.000-08:00

im sorrie
thats all i can say for now

` i hate myself at times -

yawns tired tired .....

2005-03-26T18:21:00.000-08:00

alrights i editted this post from afternoon.. =) shall talk more and make it longer.. hehe.. alrights im NOT in a good mood now.. dun ask why cause i will sure say why... cause someone close to me saw her*!! i shall call her " xxx " for safety sake.. okays xxx saw her* !!! she saw her* .. and she talked to her* !!? How true can this be!? arghhh` =/ i can just scream my lungs out.. i just wanna kill that xxx ! omg* ... i should have gone.. i should have gone right!!? Yes! i should have gone.. i knew she* would be there.. why din i go leh?! cause i din wanna go and becox i din wanna go , i of cox din get that chance to see her* or rather have a chat with her*.. arghh!!` just kill me pleaseee! i wanna kill myself now.. take e penknife and just kill myself! grr.. if only i can fly there NOW!?? i know its impossible larh.. omg* im going crazy.. haiz =/ but nvm i shall cheer up cox xxx is being nice and helping me with smth.. LOL` i sure love my xxx!! *muackiess*

i din do anything good today.. im supposed to be watching movie but von cant go den everyone got church so left jaime n me.. pitiful.. nvm another tym ba... alrights so i am supposed to be studying! but i sat infront of the com and played games the whole entire afternoon.. and of cause i din forget .. FOOD! food accompanied me the whole afternoon too.. heh x) and music blasting.. haha.. i seriously dunno when i am able to sit still and study!? arghh` perharps tonight i will read twelfth night and understand the story and also do my tuition hwk.. woah i feel so great planning all this but i just hope i can accomplish it w/o the games distracting me.. haha..

Alrights tV time for Me Now ~
i hardly have time for my "lover" on weekdays so now is the tym to spend it with my "lover".. wahahas.. =)

but i need to get somethings done first!!
first ranking : SHOPPING ! =)
` its the tym to shop once agn and make my mum go broke.. lol.. i shall do it SOON!
i will find the time [i hope] ..
second ranking : of cause is studying ..
` i gotta plan my time really well this time.. im aiming for seven pts =) i must do it.. [no matter what. haha]

=)
hope it will be a great day ahead`

alrights im here for the 3rd tym. hope its successful tis tym =/

2005-03-25T23:52:00.000-08:00

alrights im here for the third time today .. but it all din succeed.. cox i simply just kept cancelling and quitting the page.. hmm i also dunno wads gg on!? wad m i feeling?! rather lost ... but i also dunno why..

i spent my entire day slacking =) just the TV and ME ... toked to Boogie-wOogie awhile just now too.. lolx.. i miss my sweetie .. *loves* and that other BIG mean ass abandoned me tym agn n agn.. arghh nvm.. =/

while sending sum pics to joce.. i saw her* pic.. just kept wondering.. how much she has changed.. why do i still bother bout her?! i dunno why.. i know the line clearly.. its that i and her r just mainly frens... that treat each other like strangers.. =/ alrights i wun even dare to say Hi cox whu knows wads she's tinking inside so rather remain this way.. she knows it anyway.. i dun make moves.. yuppx and i know wad she is thinkin inside.. i of cox do know it clearly.. hmm.

`why bother to think of the past
when its over

`why bother to know so much
when its useless

`why did God put so much misunderstandings btw US..
are we meant to end up like that

`No reasons for all this
guess its all fated

i LOVE my OWNER-bOoger ` NIC! :)

2005-03-24T23:59:00.000-08:00

i MISS my bOoger-OwnEr !!! `
i LURVE her tooo bitssss !!! `
=))

alrights ; i finally got a chance to catch up with her!! AT LAST!! *Hooray!!*
=))

bOoger-oWnEr day is COMING!!`
Its the 17TH of EVERY MONTH!! `
=)) and AUGUST will be the MOST special month ..
All Thanks to bOoger-OwnEr!! im NICE to her!! hehx ..

she* cheered me up!!`
Thanks sweetie* for your crappyness ..
LOL` =) loves*loves* -

i LOVE it man!! :)

2005-03-24T20:44:00.000-08:00

` i LOVE it =)

Alrights.. i changed my skin once again!! and i LOVE it!! haha.. happen to see it.. im fated with this skin!! arghh` i just love it!! ... LOL` =)

im pisst SO leave me alone for goodness sake! -

2005-03-24T18:26:00.000-08:00

alrights im rather cool now.. im rather relaxed.. but i know when the day comes.. i will just lose control and scream my farking tots out at those bitches!! alrights.. i went back to GOH. thats good for me.. but there is a farking reason behind it.. that hypocrite e.HO should just FUCK OFF! she is a fucking liar.. fucking hypocrite! why give me hope 3tyms den treat me like a fucking fool!? she should just FUCK her ass off!! that short bitch also... hurr acting NICE infrnt of me?! oh.. waste of my tym.. say wad lengthen my skirt?! my skirt lengthen wad shit.. alrights i lengthened.. den now wad fuck r they up to..!? gonna spoil my mood agn.. gonna tok to me agn.. in 2weeks tym.. they act as if they r so great.. yst i prepared my speech.. LOL` im gonna tell them off and say take e rank.. im graduating frm tt fuck cca in 3weeks tym.. i ll say a BIG goodbye! whu cares bout sec5.. not me.. they kan jus strip that pitiful rank.. LOL` 3weeks more..?! haha.. let them scold me 4 one last pathetic tym manx.. see wad they ve to say this tym.. they kan even kick me out of the comm. im most willing.. whu wanna stay in tt fucking comm. wid that fucking bitch.!? hahas... =)

alrights.. school was okay lar.. nth much happened.. plus im lazy to say.. =) haha.. im just afraid i cant do papercut well.. and i bet i cant... anyway tmr is HOLS! wahahas... im gonna wake up late!! yeahs* ... i shall spend my tym infrnt of e teE-veE .. lolz..

cheer up*=)
smiles.

a B.IM.BO`

2005-03-23T23:02:00.000-08:00

i hate it when its WED and tmr is THUR! .. dun ever mention tmr is THUR and there is ART to my class mannx or any of us.. we will just ask u to shut ur mouth.. =/

alright;one reason why we hate it -
ART.SUX =/
the Teacher` too..

im prepared enuff to get a B.I.G scolding frm her tmr ... i bet everyone is .. heHES. =) im short of 3sketches plus 4transf.n ... i "promised" her that i WILL get it done but .. guess i neva keep promises to teachers. LOl`

and.. now.. i got a BAD.BAD.BAD FLU ... !! urghhhh` =/

alrights;
she is not even fit to be a bit.ch .. or a bim.bo lar..
i just cant imagine an ass praising herself to be pretty ?!
oh my.. just like becca's gd fren "J" ... =)
praising herself n attracting attention .. i wonder wad else kan this ppl do ?!
oh.. and tis fellow calls herself chio!? when she is.... =/ urghh .. and she says All e guys r lining up for her no. !? guess there mux b a big prob there... LOL`

life has ended for another

2005-03-23T19:53:00.000-08:00

what is life all about ?! .. people live till a certain age after all e suffering and just pass away... is it better for them cox it ends all e suffering or is it a bad thing ?! what isit like in another world ?! ... =/ alright ; someone distanced just left .. sumone i tink i ever talked to but den i tink i neva met him b4 ... ?! i myself dunno.. but isit good 4 him this way?! cox it ends all his pain!? .. hmm...

alrights back to the day again.. another day has passed.. soon the Mid-year is coming.. probably in a few weeks after sec4fw ba ...i tink in 7-8wks tym! i need my part-tym tutor!? CHEE! alrights doubt she ll b reading this but den i seriously need her! she shall be and will be my tutor till i finally finish my sec sch education! ahahahas.. im aiming for 6-7pts for N-lvl ba.. i tink 7pts would be beta.. i doubt i can make it to 6 pts.. =/ OKAYS! how am i gonna concentrate then... i tink i ve had enuff of slping ba.. shall study study!! =) haha..

school was okay and alright and fun and stupid! my girlfren finally came!! arghh` she greeted me wid a sm:)le first thing in e mrng! lol` =) cant reali rmb wad happened.. recess was super duper long.. cox two-PE periods was cancelled!.. haha. and i just realised e doc is topid! he gave me 1week MC that din reali cover till nxt wk's lesson.. how topid.. he is sucha stupid-ass! lol` =) okays maths test was alright but also can sae quite difficult.. will i pass?! =/ bio was horrible.. lOo din come so we had to copy n copy.. and....... urghh` i shall nt say here. cox its rather piss-ing.. but anw the class was copying real fast n my hands were pain.. tink it was us + yuen and all that was gg real fast n others couldnt catch up.. hmm.. R.E.W was topid agn.. alrights boring is e word.. can they just call christians to attend ?! urghh.. anw yuen enjoys toking to herself..haha!! she was playing wid me den i faster walk off den she tot i was behind so she turned n said..come,hold my hand .. den she realise it wasnt me den e ger was so stunned..den we all burst out in laughter..den l8r she went out of e hall den jac n me purposely walk slow den yuen ended up in e front den she was like tokin n tokin den when she turn..we all wasnt even dere until she so malu kan... haha... =) had Macs aft school.. went wid all e "pigs".. was so crowded.. it usually had not much ppl.. i was kind enuff to buy my dear son a drink n shared food.. [hurry say im nice] haha.. cox she was broke lar.. see.. im reali tt nice..even when i m broke too.. =) den ate n came home arnd 3.. e bus which was usually crowded was empty.. and this 2 pri sch kids.. pri5 or 6 ba.. are soOo... throw-face! they act as if they 1st tym take bus.. every1 was like staring at them... den we2 faster got off e bus.. haha.. throw our face oNi lar kanx.. oops*

came home.. wanted go out to meet joce but den i fell asleep.. haha.. and so i din meet her.. wahahas.. tmr has drill! the worst manx.. they had no notice and they jus had to msg when i was slping?! oh man.. i sho do wad i did yst.. off all connections in my room.. e com and fone.. LOL`=) newae i still ve 10sketches more of art to do... would i make it by 11pm!? lol`... bt i wanna watch tv! arghhh` topid art.. hmm and mummie is not coming tmr.. i ve no more companion.. =/

im sorrie`pls cheer up!!
iLOVEyou* =)

i miss nick

2005-03-22T22:38:00.000-08:00

i miss my booger-owner`
=/ guess she forgotten all bout me
aww` i miss her tooo bitsss ...

where is my OWNER!?
=(

=) eating helps me to forget all troubles`

i m scared - i m afraid

2005-03-22T21:59:00.000-08:00

*stared at the com for a min*
i seriously ve lots to say but den i ve nth to say .. oh well .. i dun even noe wad im toking lar.. oh my im going crazy.. sum ppl r just gettin on my nerves.. but like sumone told me b4.. they r not worth a single fraction of my tym! yes.. hahaz.. alrights this is lame.. i just read those drafts.. oops* im supposed to rite? very long neva go see.. arghh nvm.. aft reading those.. im here.. LOST! haha.. dunno also lehx..

i ve let go of the past* long ago.. but still.. i dun wanna tok bout r/s .. u may ask why.. cox its broken dwn there. i dun see any need to pick e pieces up n place it nicely cox i seriously dun trust that "love" word.. it may be sweet but to me ; i dun tink every moment is sweet.. its far too hurting.. i cant let go n take it as nth has happened.. so many mths ve gone by .. but still e memories r there.. i dun love tt whoever* anymore.. its just tt .. i just simply dun trust that word "love" ... sorrie.. i may love you* still but i cant deny tt i dun believe tt word.. i cant change e fact.. sorrie... ilu*

alrights back to my day.. cabbed to central todaex.. was feelin rather sick e whole entire day.. like sumone was takin e hammer n knockin my head 24hrs.. arghh` e medicine jus made me so drowsy.. hmm... i feel like sleepin all day.. school was alright.. my girlfren din come =( i miss her*.. hehe.. shashashasha` =)) had R.E.W during e last period.. every1 was fallin into deep slp.. i was like.. in another world.. haishh` =/ stayed back for awhile.. prac commanding.. just one silly command.. omg*.. dang n joce helped me=) i even bribed cheryl to command softer on tt day.. oops*.. i mux make it.. =) came home on my own.. i managed to catch a cab just a second when e rain came falling.. lolx so lucky! =)

came home and slept ..... studied maths n now im here =)
off to bed soon` i nid LOTS of sleep!

OH YESH! SEC FOUR FAREWELL IS IN ONE MONTH'S TIME!!
urghhhhh` why so fast this year!!? i dun wan farewell .... =/
TO: ALL secFOURS we r booking a chalet ..
winnie is trying to! =))

why force me to when i ve alr given up!!?

2005-03-21T22:15:00.000-08:00

why force me to love when i dun even noe wad is love
why force me to carry on when i alr gave up long ago
why force me to do things i dun wanna do
why force me to face it when im alr avoiding it
why force me ...
why ...

i hate the word "love"
i ve alr gone numb long ago
i ve no more feelins to it anymore
i ve had enuff of it
why is she happi wid life now but i hurt wid the word
why can she live happily but i cant
why cant i forget
why.. why.. why ...
haishh` i hate the word and i hate this world

why can ppl say "love" is so wonderful
it is to them cox they ve sumone they love
but i lost her n hence it is not as wonderful anymore
i hate this game ; i hate this world

feeling the same or even worse

2005-03-21T18:00:00.000-08:00

back from the doctor not long ago.. he is great cox he gives MCs like nobody's business.. wahahas.. and of cox the more MCs he give me.. the happier i am.. =) but so sad tmr got test so i no choice mux go school or else i kan ask for more MCs .. hehe..

im still feeling terrible .. head is like spinning ..
i wanna sleep!! =/
arghhh` and not for Miss Winnie Dang ..
i wont even bother to come online ..
topid mouse asked me send her e stuff when she is not even online but cutting hair!? still bluff me she turning crk.. she kan just go n die =) LOL`

i feel like turning straight`
LOL` great idea huh ..
wahahahas ...

sick and in pain =/

2005-03-21T12:12:00.000-08:00

din go skool today thats why i am here.! lol`

felt so bloody sick tis mrng and just cox my mum doesnt wan to bring me to the doc den she force me to go school.. but i din bother to get up den she go call my father.. haha den he say she got fever la den still force her.. selfish pple in e hse manx .. den continued to slp all e way till eleven plus.. woke up den bathe n eat .. my stomach hurts for no reason now.. i dun wanna go sch anymore manx.. haix..later still mux go see doc and im too lazy n in pain ..arghh` =/

i miss you`
=)

school re-opening ` i detest sucha day =/

2005-03-20T22:12:00.000-08:00

what am i to do now?! how .. how ..
arghh` im stuck .. haishh`

SUPPOSED to complete:
- art [ 40 sketches ; 4 transformations ]
- bible project review [ march due]
- english reviews [ movie ; book ]
- revised chinese [ test on tues ]

but i oni did 36 sketches and the bible review =)
haha.. i din do english either .. and tmr mux hand in..
well , wish me gd luck pple =) wahahas ..

im bored but i ve nth much to blog aniwae.. staying back on tues awhile to prac den got tuition .. haishh` i beta make use of that tym to train the farking voice b4 i go 4 tuition .. hmm

school is opening tmr alr.. haishh` guess i have no more breaks anymore..
mid-years are coming.. *stress =/
plus i detest the day when i ve to go back to school..
which is tmr ... aww` =/

mum asked me who it was .. i said i dunno?! would i be topid to say who.. and her advice is stay away frm crks ?! lolz.. does she noe wad her daughter is!? anw i noe how much they are against it .. hmm..

thankies`
sm:)les.
cheer up alrights

two days more to the end of holidays :(

2005-03-19T14:10:00.000-08:00

haishh` in two days time the hols will be over .. over over over !! .. so sad` i love slacking at home all day and now i gotta wake up chao early for stupid school.. thats sad.. sad sad sad!! hmm.. newae i seriously ve no confidence in being a stickman.. although its just one command.. but still i dun ve confidence.. haishh` and neither do i wanna take e sec1s.. hmm i want GOH back.. i want my fav.cont back ... this is so sad! haishh`.. so far told joce and dang bout it and they say its good ?! how good.. how cool.. can it be manx?! ahhh.. help me manx .. =/

i need cheering up but no one seems to be able to help.. i just feel more irritated wid the world.. oh so sorry to those.. haishh` =/ also dunno wads wrong with me.. just feel like tearing .. hmm.. just like last nite.. logged off and got away from the whole world.. =) wanted sleep but den ended up staring into air.. mind blank.. haishh` mental breakdown .. LOL`

i feel like eating and eating now..
i miss my food-spree darhlings ..
LOL` =)

wad i gotta do today :
- art [`2 transformations + 16sketches]
- bible project review [based on 24mar-31mar]

disappointed

2005-03-18T22:12:00.000-08:00

`sad and disappointed -

haish just blogged but all gone.. feeling kinda irritated for some reason.. just dun come make me now.. haishh` anw stupid mtg took quite long todaex.. w^2 picked ** agn.. haix still say me so much.. ownself dunno having wad on.. kan mix wid tis kinda ppl den i cant even tok to a bung.. wtf.. trying to control my life wid my frens .. ownself come frm pl den dun she noe e sch is filled wid so many.. say me so much when she ownself dunno doing wad.. anw got sabo-ed and pushed out of GOH. my fav.contingent.. yst i was praising n todaex i got pushed out.. to being stickman.. but not confirmed.. haix mux still practice during tis 1 week.. hmm.. its either a sec1 cont. commander or stick-man. think i wun wanna take e sec1s lar.. haix. =/

went eat dinner aft tt.. crapped alot.. den came home aft that.. watched my fav.show =) lol`.. i mux finish all my wrk todaex.. haix dun even ve tym to study lar kanx.. haish` feel like sleepin den l8r wake up do but tink i wun even wake up... hmm...

im sad.
im dejected.
haishh`
poor me =/

i MISS her`

2005-03-18T13:50:00.000-08:00

slept rather late.. two plus.. haha.. rather stressed up den played game and pei my night stead.. din do any hwk.. give up manx.. =/ woke up eleven plus den watch tv and helped that mean ass clean her frenster testi.. wahahas.. =) im bored.. bored.. bored....

later still mux go out =) haha..

i miss her`
i love her`
she is my love`
my precious`
=)

today is march 18th ..
sumthings to rmb..
BUT they r past `

todae is the present
yst is past
tmr is future

i dun care wad the future holds
im living in a reality world.

todae is todae.
the present.
=)

I GIB UP TOTALLY !! GRR`

2005-03-17T23:38:00.000-08:00

I GIVE UP ON MY HWK !!!!
`ARGHH!! =/

soooo much piling up each tym i delay ;
aww`

aching!!!!

2005-03-17T22:10:00.000-08:00

my legs are ACHING so badly nowwww !!
for some reason ...
*PAIN*

im in deep pain!!
any help ?!
arghh`
=/

[ im sucha happy soul today ]

2005-03-17T20:49:00.000-08:00

also find myself wierd today .. feeling happier? hmm ... dunno larh.. heck care lar.. haha.. must be crazy.. oops* =) newae woke up pretty early todaex .. den went meet winnie ; still early so went 7-11 den ate my so-called breakfast.. was like soOo hungry den waited for that topid mouse.. haha. den l8r went sch wid viv.rach. and tt lil ger.. reached early but den went toilet to make my hair [HAHA`] den went sickbay cox of winnie's leg den when we came out.. everyone gone ler.. haha so we ran.. cox we tot sharon cuming.. den l8r sharon nt there so we bo chap.. jus took our tym.. haha =) drill was rather slack lar! rather... haha.. cihui was lookin 4 pple whu kept toking.. den lucky she neva pick me.. lol cox i was like tokin wid michelle all e way.. drill also kan laugh? LOL` char was unlucky.. wahaha. poor gf.. =) drill was rather fun too wid michelle n jocelyn.. our rank has N.I.C.E pple.. lolx ...

stayed back wid pui they all awhile.. cox dang got devt. mtg.. den went eat early lunch nearby.. saw char again! and i gt bullied.. =/ followed dang n joce to serangoon swimmin complex aft tt.. they swam n i played game n listen music.. i cant swim todaex for goodness sick.. lolx.. den we went snappin pics at e children's pool and den e guard saw n started scoldin.. wahahax.. cox i was not supposed to b touching the water n my shoe was... LOL` =) but den we continued snapping.. haha.. den l8r i went bk to listenin music agn.. haha den l8r they went to wash up n i played wid my hair.. wahahas.. my new hobby.. lol.. den headed to central.. bought my tracing paper.. and we went on a sort of EATING spree.. wahaha.. we feel so greedy lar kanx.. bought egg tartS! den went buy drinks.. den went supermarket.. bought ice cream after tt.. den egg tartS agn! haha.. and macs icecream machine had to breakdwn on sucha hot dae.. =/ freaking hot day... so full summore.. ate chicken rice also.. LOL` headed home aft tt .. =) wanted watch tv but was too lazy to move also.. hehe.. and here i am agn.. missin my show's esp e 2nd tym.. =/

i love my two darhlings toooo bitsss` =))

to you* -
[ thnx`i lurve the thing lotssss =) ]

im FUCKED UP! just GET LOST

2005-03-16T14:49:00.000-08:00

im fucking pisst wid you
just fuck off
and get lost

a new day`

2005-03-16T11:36:00.000-08:00

i hate cramps!!` aww..im dying.. =/

listening to sum sad song ..
why r all sad songs so nice ?!
lol` =)

so much things to do.. but i got no mood~! im dying here ...
i miss you so much but .... nvm =)

oh yesh.. yst was damn funny.. lol` that topid mean ass called me suddenly kanx.. den conference wid her fren.. they cant do anything but laugh lor.. kip making me laugh summore.. den aft her fren left.. left e 2 of us.. damn funny.. make me so high..and i mean.. damn farking high! haha...=)she cheered me up! great talk.. i love talking to her mannx.. [sweetie*ilu-] =))

COMPLETED`

polish boots a lil bit =)
2weeks of bible project review
*i cant do art! thats so sad..i got no tracing paper.. its piling up for goodness sake..all thnx to my dad.. grrr =/ 18sketches over 2 daex ... haishh`

[ i m sad` ]

2005-03-15T22:26:00.000-08:00

i suddenly feel like crying`

me again` alwaes me` regretting - gone -

2005-03-15T20:07:00.000-08:00

again it happened`
guess its alwaes happening`
hiashh` and its alwaes me ..
alrite i chose this ..
blame myself..
smiles fran =)

life should be better tmr =)
i just hope ....

for the last tym..
i m also telling you*
`ilurveyou
`imissyou

sorry=)

i love my hair cut toooo bitsssssss =)

2005-03-15T19:05:00.000-08:00

i just cut my hair!! lol` =)
im happie wid it this tym round .... wahahahax

why must one have tuition?
why must one study?
im sick of tuition n studying..
lol` just kill me ; somebody..

im waiting for friday to come.. but i dun wan the hols to end so quick.. i haven prepare much yet..

COMPLETED`

din skip maths tuition =)
done second week of e bible project
cut hair =) iLOVEit`
* trying to complete 9 art sketches when i dun ve tracing paper anymorehow wonderful ; doubt i kan do my art todae =/

im thinking of you*

nite stead is coming back todaex.. if she knew i studied.. she sure would be happie..right ? nite stead ... lol =) nvm at least that mouse kept me company yst nite ..

a sweet one`

2005-03-14T21:54:00.000-08:00

you brighten up my day`
=)

perharps ;
being single is my long-term decision ;
perharps ;
you gotta re-consider
=)

loads of love ;
from ME* to YOU*

BIG NEWS`
MISS WINNIE DANG bullied ME`
=) *smacks her* LOL

proud of M'SELF :)

2005-03-14T17:47:00.000-08:00

* UPDATED *

COMPLETED`
ten-year series maths ; chapter two
art drawings ; nine sketches
watched finish a vcd
polished boots
research on Gb project
done one week of review on bible project

=))
continue to work hard`

start of my hardwork `

2005-03-14T09:41:00.000-08:00

start of my holidays`
means start of my hardwork`
=)
few more mths to the exams ..
i mux motivate myself to study ..

[iMISSyou*]

woke up pretty early todaex.. at 8am.. couldnt slp even when i wanted to sleep.. sumthin is wrong.. lolz.. home alone` but dun intend to go out.. im too lazy to even leave the hse.. =/ did sum clearing up .. now my room looks neater.. hehe.. gonna do eight sketches a day .. =) and sum studies..

i miss my nite stead` no more night late talks ... nvm i shall wait till tmr when she comes back.. lol.. last nite was rather sad for sum reason .. suddenly tot of sumone` but nvm now im OK! lol...

iLu*

MY PRECIOUS`

2005-03-13T22:38:00.000-08:00

imHAPPIE` for sum reason =)
imEXCITED` for another reason =)
imFLYING` for a third reason =)

*whee`
=)))))

[iLURVEyou`]
missingYOU* -

COMPANY OUTING `

2005-03-12T16:28:00.000-08:00

just came back quite long ler.. so tired` todaex woke up damn early just to go buy breakfast .. =) the topid 53 like terminated or wad ... so wad if its a saturdae.. it took yrs to come kanx.. make me wake up so early just to wait 25mins for e damn bus .. went buy macs den waited for another bus and e worst thing is .. i took e bloody wrong bus cox joce was like rushing me ... !? den aft i passed e correct stop ; i realise its wrong bus so got dwn at e next stop and walked ... and i almost got lost.. haha but i m smart` haha.. i managed to find my way out of e damn estate in 5mins.. hehes.. ve a sense of direction at least.. was tinking if mousey got lost .. she sure take yrs to find her way out.. lol` =) ate the late breakfast on e bus .. and took fotos .. hehes.

sentosa was alright lar .. so bloody tiring .. and i had to help the blur audrey.. who couldnt count well.. haha and couldnt even tc of 10 pple?! at 1st tot she not cuming den abandon me wid e topid pri sch pple + 10 sec.sch gers... lucky she came or i may jus die.. =/ had devt. den got e clues den left for e beach ... walked rather far .. it was rather boring n sianx .. summore so hot .. completed 2 stations oni den went to rest.. too lazy to go on den went bk .. couldnt make up our mind on takin bus or tram.. haha ... spent the topid mrng liddat .. came bk to school den wanted go serangoon.gdn but den cihui asked us to accompany her go hlm so ate macs agn! oh well ; i ve been eating macs practically everyday ?! .. sat n toked den left wid joce =)

im so bloody bored now and tired ..
supposed to do 8sketches a day BUT im lazy ..
=)

` 5 mths more to prelims ..

iMy* -

a letter `

2005-03-11T18:03:00.000-08:00

guess i wun reply that letter for the tym being
i ve no answer to that letter at all
wad am i supposed to say
i dun even knw
so i guess im not gonna answer to that now
dunno wad am i up to also
no reason
no explaination
nothing at all

woke up rather early todae .. i tot it was saturday kanx .. how topid.. den saw sumone ... waited for jaime they all for rather long... haha.. school was okay lar.. tot art was cancelled so neva bring anything but tt topid ass was rather satisfied.. im not gonna be real busy tis hols manx.. i dun even ve 48 sketches .. haha.. prepared to wrk late ... lolx .. all sat seperately during recess todaex .. haha.. nvm bout that .. haishh` there is alwaes frenship probs in tis world .. so many probs .. haix haix ... =/ saw a fucking bitch aft tt.. stare stare stare .. tink wad got her precious fren to protect her..? LOL` biggest joke .. den risha n me went saying her all e way .. we2 purposely say until so loud.. she still kan stare at me until like she so da pai ? sit like she fucking sumbodie.. *fucking bitch.

l8r principal wanted see e whole class .. tot wad happen .. den of cox we all suddenly became so guai in our attire.. in e end is cox of results.. haix den next next wk gotta see her agn .. -_- went collect results wid my dad aft sch .. so pisst off` say wad i join gang in class !? lol`.. wadeva` .. they kan say wad they like.. den went hg mall for lunch n i made a hole in his pocket.. *oops. =) -home-

tmr still got GB.. company outing.. gonna wake up real early to buy breakfast.. =)

leading a happie life
as for now
i dun wanna tink bout it
ilu*

im perfectly mentally abnormal ???!

2005-03-10T21:07:00.000-08:00

just woke up not long ago.. den went to watch tv.. lolx.. nice sleep.. nice show.. =) damn tired these days.. lucky tmr last day of school ler.. *smiles.. im starting to forget things.. im not gonna feel sad cox e more im sad.. it hurts her.. i just wan her to be happie.. so i mux be happie too.. =) we two shall be happie ... sorry din ans e calls.. was slping ?! ... hehes..

to all those whu msged me.. thnx* appreciated -

to you`
iLURVEyou` -
sorrie for hurting you* ..

to that sumone`
thanks for that msg..
yupx im fine =)

e feelin is gone ; im numb

2005-03-10T16:14:00.000-08:00

im sorry ;
i seriously duno wad e fuck m i up to ;
i just wanna break down and cry ;
whose arms r there ;
i just wanna cry it out ;
i wanna lock myself up all day ;
i hate this fucking world ;
sumbodie just help me out ;
no fucking thing can cure me now ;
just now saw that msg ;
felt numb ; wanna cry ;
im sorry ;
i ve nth to say ;
i wanna just run away from everything ;
breaking down and crying ;
[`iMISSyou]

yuen din come todaex so its rather quiet .. gerfren was upset .. tried cheering her up.. but no use lar.. why is love so pain ... why is it so confusing .. i feel terrible inside .. todaex was rather slack.. a long recess again cox no PE .. bout 50mins of recess.. den becca n me jus kept eating .. im putting on lotsa weight.. just eating n eating .. maybe to kill myself ? i feel so pain inside.. guess no one ll understand or noe.. din tell anyone either.. e ones i used to tell everythin to is drifting away ... e rest cant b trusted much.. i feel so terrible inside.. everyone is sufferin frm smth wrong.. i just wanna break down n cry... no one ll understand .. all i kan say to you now is sorry.. ur drafted post is correct.. maybe its wrong for me to tell u cox i oni hurted u .. im sorry..

tears feeling my eyes ;
nth kan stop it frm flowing ;
i hurted my loved one once again ;
kan sumone understand me ;
kan sumone guide me thru ;
- criesss` [bleeding]

[ hidden sorrows -]

2005-03-09T18:36:00.000-08:00

today is MY GURLFREN'S BIRTHDAY !!!`
HAPPIE SWEET SIXTEEN JACX !! `
=))

im not fucking qualified for Nlevel at all... grr neva mind bout that.. just gotta worry.. in five mths tym it ll be my prelims den soon e exam.. wth* neva felt so scared before.. wad IF ...........

alrights ; wanted spot check to be todae cox i was ready for it but den it wasn't ... maybe its tmr or on friday.. they beta have one fast cox im too lazy to stay on guard alwaes... its too tiring.. big bird is sOoooo ... old-fashion .. she say we destroy e sch rep. ..but did anyone tell her.. it was SHE!!.. she she SHE` who sumhow destroyed it .. !?? she is a fucking bird ... newae "PE" was NICE` reason ... we spent half an hr eating cake !! chen.lao shi bought it for e jan.feb.mar bdae gers.. = ME ; dang ; gerfren ...etc =)) ermm .. it was NICE. hehes.. den went for PE .. rather topid.. walked or rather jogged for ... 1.8km ?? ... went out of school ... den cut thru e condo [ sha called it condom.. oopps*] .. den passed many hses ... till s.gardens den back to those hses n to school.. a GIANT BIG round.. was soOo tired lar kanx ... it was meant to measure 2.4km .. but den aft all ..it was oni 1.8km ? how topid ... =/ recess was nice agn .. clique talked bout many things.. bout family.. everyone sure ve probs lar .. spent bout 40mins plus chatting.. hmm .... den dear fucking sad.. she teared! aww.. my precious* dun be sad !! im here.. ilu* .. yuen was bout to also.. poor pple.. =/ [to clique; we ll alwaes b dere for one another-loves*]

had free sun-tanning todaex.. so tan ler den still had sun-tanning .. cox of the topid sudden fire drill.. we were just strolling all e way.. lolx ... left school wid dang they all.. saw dear waiting for cab.. i feel so mean.. she couldnt catch a cab n i was like laughin all e way.. den later our bus came den i still say bye n happi waiting.. oops* =) ate macs agn ... den went jaime hse to borrow stuff.. topid MoMo scare me ... her topid doggie.. haha ... he was put in e kitchen but den he wanted escape so i went screamin... lol den jaime n her sis tot smth big happen! hahaha ... den later jaime went to see MoMo thru e glass den i tot she wanted open e door so i screamed agn... lol` how topid... hahhahas.. cabbed home den ..

[iMISSyou`]
; dunno wat to do now

FUN DAY !!!! :)))

2005-03-08T21:19:00.000-08:00

saw sumone* this mrng again..
=)

school was nth lar.. same old things agn .. clique n me again.. hehe.. chinese was topid okay.. dear n me slept and e chen.lao shi was like kip waking me up den when others slp..she dun care.. so unfair.. hahas.. but nvm she is nice lar.. haha.. nth much happened.. oni biology.. it was SICK!! real sick.. sick sick sick!!! ... [wah`] ... e whole class was like making all kinds of noises.. ermm shall not say why.. oh my, i ve phobia now... lol` =/

left early todaex.. wid risha.. at 1.40pm.. called jacx.. " we on e way ler.. u ready? ... yar i ready already... u sure? u bathe yet? ... *laughs* no.. haven.. hurry go lar.." -hangs up- den we COULD HAVE caught the 55 bus to bishan BUT we DIN!! so we decided to wait for e next.. den sha kept taking fotos.. den e second bus came.. we missed it.. den e third .. den e forth.. den e fifth... den we decided to take it.. LOL` how topid... we like sum idiots.. left first but sat at e bus stop till two plus .. cox we knw jacx sure late!! stupid ass ... reached j8 BUT she was still late!! we two were like wonderin arnd like sum idiots.. den toked to priya awhile .. sha so notti go disturb sum boi den he call her siao.. HAHA`..den aft half an hr.. we decided to go long john.. dun wan bother bout jacx ler.. den aft we buy food.. she call.. den we dun care.. we still continue act like she transparent.. hahaha.. ate n toked alot n all.. damn fun` =)

went take neos n walked arnd aft that.. sha is NUTS todaex!! running high fever... kept acting like a psycho!! hahas... took many fone shots n all.. damn fun den went shopping =) hehes.. three of us.. damn long neva go out tgh ler.. since dec? wah... sooo long ago.. hmm i lurve my two gerfrens... haha` [sha`jacx`my precious gerfrens`] =)))))) had a fun tym wid dem.. esp fooling arnd wid dem.. hehes`

saw tt topid couple agn! haha on my way home.. *oopsss.` =) kidding only..

to you*..
` i feel so angry wid myself..
cox i ve no courage to say yes..
i knw im gonna lose u sooner or later if i do tis..
but i seriously cant help but reject..
i dunno wad im doing ..
im sorry..
i just love you but i cant do that ..
i cant accept e fact of those things..
sorry..

H . I . T . C . H

2005-03-07T21:50:00.000-08:00

trying to be h.a.p.p.y `
=))

today woke up rather late den forgot my topid badge.. and that delayed me even more.. tot was late den saw tis sec two ger taking cab ?? so asked if kan share cab .. haha den her mum so happie?? .. lolx thats lame.. and that ger was rather scared of me ?? .. haha.. there was no cab at school so took bus to central den waited for cab.. saw that topid "princess" phoebe.. LOL =) den she took a ride also.. she is hell topid!! oops* hahas.. den we 3 cabbed to school.. how lame.. den so suay!! saw that b.itch HO! i shall call her a b.itch from now on ... come say my skirt AGAIN! den she say i alwaes show her attitude so i todae neva! den guess wad.. she show me!? bloody fucker...

had assembly.. was thinking thru out.. sho i gib up that rank ?! ... if i do.. and tell that b.itch str8 in e face.. sharon sure disappointed ... and she sure scold me for wasting her tym!? oOh wadeva manx.. heck.. but was tinking alot.. also dunno wad i want!? i cant b able to change in tis period of tym?! even if i can.. r they worth me changing?! to me ; they r notx! cox they r all farking liars.. wahahax .. so..... after all e thinking.. my answer is .. i D.U.N.N.O ` =) LOL`

school was okie.. nth much happened.. i saw my results ler.. i passed all EXCEPT combined.sci .. hmm cox i failed ONE pathetic bio paper.. and ONE pathetic chem paper .. haishh` =/ cox of science.. my beautiful blue ink result slip is destroyed!! lol` ... wth* .. but.. nvm.. my results r still not up to N-level... haishh` will you pls make it! will you pls work hard!? grr ...

went bishan after school wid puipui , amanda and dear ... watched HITCH.. =) lol`.. that show was hell funny.. kinda nice lar .. to US.. haha.. first had macs.. was so full.. den tt pig was eating up dear n my food for us.. lol.. den walked arnd a lil while... b4 going in.. dear asked me to snap a "gay-kissing" shot.. lol`.. was hell funny.. oops* .. hehes.. and those ppl were laughing so loud.. throw my face oni.. PUI was more funny.. wid her jacket.. [oni jac and me noex`] HAHA=) and amanda n jac was making a joke of tt bald idiot.. haha ... aft it ended den PUI went meet sumone*.. den we3 go buy food!!lol`... den kip eating jac's bro "so-called dinner" ... hahas... and i burnt my tongue!! wat the... haha.. left wid jac alone.. topid couple took e nxt bus.. den jac hp spoil.. poor thing.. =/ den met this idiot! that farking fat ass on e bus.. kip knockin into me.. bloody hell.. den we2 kip sayin him.. feel so mean.. but he is hell irritating.. asshOle. =/ den waited wid jac at e bus stop for her 62.. it took yrs to come.. den e nxt 53 came.. and we saw e stupid couple.. hahas... jac was so excited over smth bout them.. its so topid.. lol.. -home`

to you* '
` i seriously dunno how to tell you ..
i wanna be yours .. i wan you to be mine ..
but ..... i shi zhong bu neng gou ...
i dunno wad im feeling inside ..
each tym ur sad.. it reali breaks my heart ..
each tym u ask me tt ques .. i reali wanna sae "yes" ..
but..... still i tell u .. e same old answer..
i still cant accept e fact .. i also duno why ..
i told u b4 e reasons .. i seriously dunno ..
dunno wad i wanna do ..
i seriously love you ..
i knw u did reject many things for me ..
thnx.. but if one day u tell me u wana gib up..
i also wun blame u .. cox its too selfish to get u to wait ..
when i seriously dunno when tt thing ll ever happen ..
im sorrie..
ilu* missing ya every single second ...

to that sumone who may read this `
i dunno if you still do read this ..
but same words to you ..
gib up and move on ..
u ll realise the future and road ahead is far better ..
=)

` move on -

2005-03-06T16:09:00.000-08:00

sumone told me smth just now ..
just feel like saying ..

just move on and forget everything
life would be better
:))

` MY NITE STEAD IS TOPID

2005-03-05T22:00:00.000-08:00

MY NITE'STEAD IS JEALOUS !!!
=))))))

HAHA` i feel so mean typing that sentence so BIG !! ...
lol` whu cares !!???

she is JEALOUS cox my brother bought her dream fone !!
even jaime and grace has it and she DUN HAVE it !! ...
WAHAHAHA =))))

u idiot ; make me blog a second post cox of this
hehes ;)

- day out

2005-03-05T21:50:00.000-08:00

i blogged ...
BUT its GONE !!
wat the hell manx ...

nth much to say lar.. nvm shall not say again.. grr ..

to sumone` :
iMISSya* ;
i hope to be yours one day ;
i hope i ve tt courage to accept ya ;
i wish for many things ;
but ....
nvm. im sorrie ..

iLOVEya*

[im feelin tired`]

2005-03-04T22:13:00.000-08:00

saw sumone tis mrng.. lol` =)
im a happie soul ...

reached school on tym.. wahahas.. and sum ppl had to come tok to me.. i hate tokin early in e mrng in sch cox im super blur.. oops* haha.. den almost kenna spot check.. haishh` lessons were boring cox yuen yuen din come... we all missed her! she called us nuts when we told her that.. oh but nvm e class was super boring n quiet.. got back sum CA marks ler.. passed combine.humans and maths ... =) failed combine sci. and art.. =/ the rest dunno yet ba.. haishh Ns r coming fast fast fastttttttt .... and im scared! becca n me kip saying wanna concentrate but we neva seem to.. she still slps in class.. and me ?! .. hmm ........

had GB after school.. full U. ... took some tym doing my hair.. lucky i changed early in class.. den PUI did my hair for ME!! THANKS sweetie *ilu .... i din trust e rest wid my hair.. lol` ... she put all e pins on my head.. haha bout 20 or more? *ooopsss. den everyone kip saying i kaisu.. haha.. notx my fault ma.. e hair ll drop dwn ma.. lol` den had roll call n all e crapz ... had badgework .. and "drill" ... rather scolding for ONE HOUR !! wth* ... e funny thing is... everyone was in e hall except pui me jacx dawn.. we were happily strollin.. haha den later when reach e door... i told them to pretend to run in... haha den we fake fake run in... den tt ass din scold.. she tot we reali ran all e way from class.. hahaha` =) tt topid ass had to call me later on.. my leg was like numb n i couldnt walk properly.. lol` ... she has a WIERD character... one min smile.. next min she has tt "wanna kill me" face ... ended close to seven ... had short dill mtg agn.. have to go baC for drill during mar.hols!! grr... changed den went central for dinner.. Macs` hehe.. poor jaime had a bad stomachache.. whu ask her alwaes skip meals.. i skip twice a day n im still alive lor.. and she..... haix haix haix.. hahaha =) -home swt home-

iMISSher`so badly
iLURVEher`and yet i cant ve her
iWANTyou`by my side
<3>

funny lesson ; yet tiring day

2005-03-03T20:59:00.000-08:00

` im tired !! -

im just feelin so tired.. school and tests all day.. and i tink i flunk my chem today.. i had the equation infront of me and yet i copied wrongly.. how stupid manx.. haha.. and stupid farker ong had to lose my art file and she din gib me marks for my sketches.. wtf* .. i sure wanna kill her right now.. lol` .. PE was fun but lil tiring.. haha .. yuen damn funny.. but later she sumhow hurt her leg and went home early.. poor thing.. haha she was like limping arnd for sum tym.. ..

lit was funny kanx..! did grp wrk wid e clique..supposed to be 4 ppl.. but we did 9pple.. hahas.. den was reading becca's letter to sumone den din noe ms ho was behind so aft readin.. i passed to jac and hoho saw.. and so she confiscated it... and she READ IT!! wah piang... tt kinda letter.. and she go read den 1st thing she did was.. call jac.. den jac kip saying not she write one den she say.. go ask fran la.. den hoho call me.. wah den i kip saying not me.. lol... she kip askin whu but din say den dang kept turnin n looked suspicious so hoho called her too... den l8r dang aso neva say... den yuen wanted cover up for becca.. she jus made up sum guy story.. haha den tinmk hoho saw a trumpet pic and she called becca up! haha.. den toked to becca.. lol` like sum counsellin... haha.. it was damn funny... each tym hoho called sumone.. everyone ll sure burst out in laughter.. oops.. haha

had drill aft school summore.. was rather slack but fun.. lucky i din do wid drill.comm todaex.. its more fun wid e excos n sq leaders.. alisa n me did commandin.. all ms ho's fault! topid ass.. den kip staring at us.. lol we jus kept givin wrong commands.. oops.. haha its rather slack lar... haha.

waited for dang n joce ... was playing wid tt topid piggynut ... she is MEAN! haha.. and im so tired now cox of her...make me run aft her.. imagine she runnin aft pui den i run aft her.. like 3 ppl running aft each other.. lol.. was like playing wid ice.. oops. hahas.. den play till so tired kanx.. anw left wid val dang n tt lil ger ... haha.

so sianx and tired` =/

[iMISSher*-iLURVEher*]

back again !

2005-03-01T21:59:00.000-08:00

today was great ...
got back my maths n bio ...
maths ; had careless mistake n minus 3 mrks ..
bio ; i passed ! LOL` thnx to dear jac ..
whu let me copy a lil.. haha
=))

my days r alwaes fun cox .. e clique is alwaes making me laugh !!
LOL` =)) yuen was like damn funny ....
amanda pui n me laughed so hard kanx ..

the Os weren't very good but im extra stressed up now !!
i aim to pass well !! no more slacking !! wahahas ..
how to pass Maths N Science !!
i shall aim high ... wahahhas ..
its in 6mths time ...
i shall wrk hard frm now on ..
LOL` =)

nth much happened liaox ..
i din get a day off !! = (

` fucked up with you !!

2005-03-01T21:54:00.000-08:00

seriously no mood to blog todaex but i am here now for sum reason!!? lol` ... i just needa vent my anger.. cox i beared with it since last night ... so sad till wanted cry .. although din but inside was so pain` hurt` terrible ... haishh ... nite stead tried consoling me but failed ? luaren lauren tried too but din reali succeed.. lol` ... jus felt terrible yst .. din tell anyone actuali.. = l

feeling terrible but no one knows why ...
haishh` i feel like killin myself!
waahahhahas` if oni i could ..
grrr ..

e other reason im here is ...
im so bloody fucked up nowwww !!
with YOU!!
who do you tink you are ..
im so bloody irritated by your fucking nonsense!!
arghhh!!
i just wanna slap you n kill you !!
grrrr !!`

slacking day ! `

2005-02-28T18:43:00.000-08:00

just hope that the last year sec fours do well for their Os ...
reason cox if they do well den the school ll give us one day off !!
lol` that ll be the happiest thing on earth manx !! =)

cancelled tuition today ..
put it to tmr ..
im too tired n lazy anyway..

anyway school okie lor .. but quite slack today..
yuen they all simply just cant stop foolin arnd ..
hahas.. funny day .. cant stop laughing lor..
andd recess was funny..
jac and yuen were like playing wid e egg white on my plate kanx ..
cutting e white up but not eating n just playing while im half way eating ..
wad the .. lol` =)

heard soon ll have spot check .. wah lao..
i hate spot checks .. =
esp of my attire n hair ..
grr ...

the days r passing so fast kanx ..
so fast tmr is MARCH !!
den it ll be soon N-levels ...
wah ... *bang wall*

i wish to have her
but the fact is .. i cant `
=(

- yellow shades // -

sweet sixteen [`me]

2005-02-27T14:57:00.000-08:00

im feeling bored so im here again .. supposed to do my art but im like ? slacking away .. lol` i actualli wanted blog smth but i simply cant rmb wad isit .. hmm .. nvm ..

thinking of her`
simply just her`
=))

its great to stay single ..
love can never last but friendship whereas can ..
both hurts but love is far more hurting ..
losing someone you want is a terrible feeling ..

oh yesh!! -
[`im here to announce i lurve lauren! lolsss. she asked me too.. haha]

` HAPIE BDAE 16TH -

2005-02-26T23:43:00.000-08:00

haha.. left half an hour more den this day will be over .. actually this day is kinda nice.. and meaningful.. lolx .. as in like got many memories .. having frens and the closer r/s wid them .. having sumone i love arnd although i cant ve her lar .. lolx .. and receiving special msgs frm special ones ... =) many many more reasons y i love this day .. this is e BEST bdae i celebrated so far recently ... hahahas ..

[ iLURVEmyBIGmeanie`]

went out almost the whole day lar... slept kinda early yst .. arnd twelve plus .. den woke up n watched tv .. my fav drama .. lolx .. den went out for lunch wid parents .. * SWENSENS * =) haha den walked frm taka to wisma and back agn ..just in search for sum stuff .. hahas den went buy my phone !! ` lol ... finally .. lucky its my bdae or else i ll neva get a fone due to my results n bill.. hahahas ... was at e singtel place for like so bloody long .. haha for about two hrs plus .. bought three fones lehx ... wah seh nw i gt new fones to play wid but of cox the other two r not mine lar... haha.. den rushed down to plaza.sing aft tt ...

went meet jocelyn von n jaime at pasta mania there .. ate dinner .. soOo full kanx .. den von bought me a cake ? nah not cake .. so-called cake .. dunno wads tt .. and jaime bought me mint chocos .. lolx ` thnx to e three of them! if oni winnie was dere too den we kan ve our full-pigs outing.. lol.. crap! =) but newae still happie to spend my day wid all this pple ... haha .. went walking arnd aft tt but they all no money to take neos.. but nvm .. hahas .. left arnd b4 nine cox jaime mux b hme early .. haha .. but newae thnx to all of dem! love you all to bitssss`

todae im finally sixteen`
sucha happie soul ...
tot thru many things n became slightly more "dong shi" ba ...
im living a happier life now ... lolx ..
let go of many things ler and gonna lead a life tt is more wonderful ...
*smiles*

oh yesh! my kor is seriously a great and nice one !!
lol` im praising you... cheer up! =) *winks.

[to: gerfren`]
- cheer up too!! dunch be sad.. life will be happier w/o thinking of those kinda things... smiles. fran lurves char =))

[to: all my frens`]
- thnx for everything .. lolx. i lurve you all to bitsssss* [muacksss`]

` HAPPIE SWEET SIXTEEN TO ME !!!!!! =)))))))

2005-02-26T00:00:00.000-08:00

its TWELVE !! `
LOL`
=))

im finally SIXTEEN !! `
wahahas ... im a happie soul ..
=))

thanks to all of you* ..
muarckssss`

[i would lurve to have you]

` LAST DAY OF 15 !! =))))))

2005-02-25T22:30:00.000-08:00

its 9.57pm liaox .... wahahahas .. in like 2hrs more.. i ll be SIXTEEN !! ` hahhas ... =) no longer fifteen ler .. sooo sadd.. haha .. newae i had sum fun todaex .. thnx to everyone .. LOL`

went school as usual.. haha and i saw tis familiar face !! but she was sitting beside a bung so i tot i saw wrongly.. so i jus ignored.. but den when e bus came .. tt bloody figure turned out to e bitch! haha so scared she saw my belt lar ... lucky no tr came to scold me during gb .. sharon even toked to me bout my rank HELD BACK again but she din scold me.. lolx ..

school was okay lar.. nth much happened... von jaime dang joce n jacx gave me a squirt isit ?! hahas.. i tink tt is how its spelt .. haha THNX sweeties .. lolx .. very cute lor den got swts inside oso ... joce n dang gave me another pressie too.. a bracelet ? yeax .. thnx thnx =) hahas..

had GB after school.. had e games !! eileen n me .. wasted sum tym in e beginning cox none of us dared to use e loud hailer.. but guess wad? now ... im like addicted to it.. im lurving it for sum reason.. seems fun! lol .... had fun sabo-ing ms ho! lol .... she was like sayin y i kip pickin on her.. whu ask her alwaes pick on me.. lol ..mux tell whole of 4d2 on monday.... haha =) devotion was ok lor... den badge work ! so boring .... for like ... TWO hours ?! every wk is liddat... rather do a lil drill.. haha.. ended arnd 7pm ...

left wid jocelyn n dang ... dey went chomp chomp... =) so decided to call home n ask lor.. den went wid dem in e end ... haha was like so full ! saw debbie angel they all.. they had no table.. LOL` ... debbie ll kill me if she reads tis.. haha.. den got one lady kip waiting 4 our table so we had to leave lor.. chatted wid val they all awhile den went macs ... haha ..

met tt horrible mean kor after that ... LOL` she passed me e pressie .. lolx so cute ! thnx to char n her lar .. =) e cow is like sooo cute kanx .. hahax..

going out tmr .. and finally kan change fone .. lolx .. =)

im missing her* ....
[ my bdae wish`] -
just kidding =) its just a dream ....

THNX for the cake anyway .. =)

different shades of purple ... LOL`

tears tears andd tears ` LOL

2005-02-24T19:55:00.000-08:00

todaex reached school on the DOT` !! ... lolx ..
waited for the damn cab from 7am till 7.15am !! wat the ...
so many bloody cabs drove past ...
and sum idiot guy had to snatch cab ..
bloody hell.. when im late .. he had to snatch ..
topid ass` LOL -
i reached at exactly 7.25 am ... hahas ..
lucky the cab came or else .... *dead*

school was fun actually .. for duno wad reason ..
skipped PE again .. and had to walk rounds ..
suay lar .. and carrie ho gave us sum " lecture " talk ..
aft all e toking .. i din even understand wad she was toking !!?
LOL` but duno why she link PE wid my CCA for ...
hahahas ..

ong SUX alright .. !! i slept at 1am yst just for her topid art sketches ..
andd .... she said cannot .. wah piangx .. slap her manx ...
everyone HATES art and HATES herr ...
stupid asshole .. hehes...
art is taking up too much of my time !!
i need a break ...
tmr still got geog test ...
and i gotta do 5 more sketches ..
*bangs wall* ...

my head is warm again ...
fever is BACK !! =) `LOL ...
tmr still got GB ..
just now had drill kanx ..
the ppl were on my nerves lar !!
say i shout too loud ?! isnt that e point !!?
grrr ... i kan just die every thurs ..
haishh` ..

oh yeahx .. i told her smth today ..
how much courage i ve manx ...
lol` ... scared e hell out of her.. i guess
=)) but my surprise is goneeee ler ..
`sad sad sad ...

oh yeax .. came home wid val and yuen ...
yuen ar ... i dunno ..
just feel like making me laugh ..
lol` also dunno why ....

its .... two days more !! =) hehes ...
counting down .. LOL`

` [ 2302 ' 05 ] -

2005-02-23T18:58:00.000-08:00

HAHA` im feeling HIGH nowww` ... no reason for that actually ... just came home like an hour ago and im like aching all over !! aww` .... im still sick btw ; hehes ... skipped PE !! wahahahs ... newae im wierd !! ... no reason but im wierd .. thats all.. full stop ` hahas ... =))

alrights .. wad happened today !!? .. hmm *thinking* .. went school as normally .. lessons and lessons again ... skipped PE and i was doing my maths hwk .. when carrie ho came .. i str8 away laid dwn .. LOL .. den when she n the class went elsewhere .. i would be like so energetic .. hehs .. i was like tokin n tokin wid jas von andd meihui lar .. den BIGmeanie walked past andd i guess she was afraid to call me .. for duno wad reason ? .. her frens had to help her instead .. and she told me smth tt sounded soOooo SERIOUS!! ` BUT ............. but but but .. it turned out to be a JOKE!! and i just burst out in laughter mannx .. and von had to bluff me .. the class was back so i had to faster run back n fake sick .. lolx .. oh yesh !! BIGmeanie's fren is scared of ME` !! may i know for wad reason!? hmm .... she said sorry to me just cox i was like starin or rather lookin at her!? LOL` ... =))

maths test was pretty easy .. had to ask jac for the answer just to confirm .. i mux score well!! or else... sum ppl out dere ll start NAGGING` hahahs ... i mux aim to pass maths and science .. first aim to score well and pass Ns den next yr .. Os .. lolx ..

left school arnd three .. headed to serangoon macs .. ate and talked all e way till FIVE plus .. we were supposed to eat n go home .. supposed to polish my boots but i heck lar .. supposed to do art but i shall do later .. hehes .. oh yes .. we ate n toked real lots !! ... like sum session for us to "fa xie" and pour all troubles out .. von toked till he teared .. thnx to becca .. LOL .. but we were like laughing like crazee.. real crazee` HAHA ~ i saw that breadtalk guy too ! at first saw his fren den i was like lookin at him ... den l8r tt guy came ... den i was like lookin thru e glass reflection .. hahas .. he looks beta looking noww .. hahas ..and more suave ... yar .. den i msged phoebe n diana ... HAHA` both of them ask me go say HI .. den i was like ... NO WAY!~ wah lao.. scary kanx .. he maybe forget me liaox lorh .. sad sad ... hmm ...

saw dang on e way home ... she looked so NERD ` off to swimming .. haha andd we di-siao her awhile den left ... caught the 53 wid becca and guess whu we saw !? ` JOCELYN .. hahahs.. so fated to see the both of them .. at arnd 5pm !? coincidence ... LOL` reached home den bathed lor.. andd now here blogging .. haha shall go do art and watch TV !! ` hahas.. =) a NICE` andd FUN` dayy ; hehes ..

OH! i got the N-level subject thingy ler.. september 4th or 5th is the start of the Ns ler ... sucha nice month ; HUH!!? lolx.. so stressed` ... sumbodie save me .. *help - HAHA ... newae the dates r so NICE ... its bloody confusing lar kanx !! ... NICE in a way .... HORRIBLE !! lolx ...

im bloody scared for the parents teacher mtg in march !! ` wad if lOo tell my dad .. i attempted to cheat !? huhx ... wad if ... chong tell him tt i alwaes fail chem !? wad if .... arghh* just kill ME pls ... haishhh ` ...

tmr is ART` ..
andd leader's drill ..

fridayy is GEOG test` ..
andd GB .. andd leading of games ...

saturdayy is MY birthdayy` ...
LOL =))

im soOo tired of my life noww` .. i want to Slack foreverr ....
gotta wake upp andd workk hard !! ` HAHA ..
[ as if .. i will .. =) LOL` ]

im thinking Andd missing ...
Y O U * -

- different shades of GREEN` =)

` wad life is ....

2005-02-22T14:35:00.000-08:00

home so early today!! ` lalalala ..
its oni 2pm ... LoLx ..
all thanks to lOo.. let us off at 135pm ..
she say cannot leave but we all leave ..
haha den von cabbed home ..
took a ride .. =)

school was so funny lar kanx ..
yuen n becca making fools of themselves ..
damn funny.. lOlx ..

tmr got pe .. sigh* dunno if to do...
still sick lehx ..
ermm feeling so stressed ..
haish* .. lots to do manx ..

i want a long long break ..
plsss .. !?

thinking of you* ..
missing ya* terribly ..

- FOUR days moreeeee -

` tears apart -

2005-02-21T21:12:00.000-08:00

im like torn apart ..
is this what life is all about ..
just close to tears ..
feeling so terribly inside ..

i nid a shoulder but ....
you* wun be there anymore ..
i miss you* ..

` will you be my bdae wish !? -

- pisst

2005-02-21T19:42:00.000-08:00

one by one r sick in the mind..asking me to wait again..
leave me alone will u !?grr ...
happily living a life w/o any rank or probs and den they had to appear n tok so much cock..
so irritating ..dare to ask me to promise i ll prove to them..
wan gib den gib.. dun wan den dun..
i ve changed enuff.. dare to say tt they noe i went all e way dwn to apologise..
they beta knw tt or else i kan jus gib them a slap mann..
i cant be bothered.. so angry inside..
arghhh.

school was normal lor..
von was chao late n i waited for like 20mins..
assembly was normal lor..
but free period was so funny..
yuen was like makin a fool of herself agn.. hehes..

i scored full marks for the first tym in maths !!
wahahahs first tym ! risha 1st pass oso ..
den we two were like.. congrats..
LOL.. crap manx !! =)

tmr got literature
den wed maths agn ..
den fri is social.s ...
*stress* -

plus i haven completed my art ..
ten sketches n five transformations ..
haishhhh ....

kan i have 365 days of holiday !!???

PLS?!

toked to tt bitch aft school..
for bout half hr..
last yr she took 45mins..
hahas.. craps mannx..
waste my tym..*pisst-

cabbed home cox jaime was late..
i kan tell u.. e taxi uncle is MAD..
he drove like sum crazee guy den kip askin where we wanna go..
den kip "huh.." den scold us for takin taxi..
eh hello.. ppl rushin his business meh !? ..
he toks like so loud .. n acts smart ..
den i tel him go lorong ah soo ..
n he asks me avenue wad!?
like hello.. lorong ah soo got ave wad!?
he is just a crazee ass ...

oh yesh...
im counting down ...
its like.. FIVE days more to go...
lolx =))

` im thinking of ya ;
every min .. every sec ;
loving ya lots ;
always .. -

leave me alone kan

2005-02-20T18:30:00.000-08:00

do u ppl knw how irritating you all are ...
it just gets so irritating ...
u call it explaining den alright it is but its just gets so irritating ...
i blog wad i wan ... i hate receiving msgs frm u tellin me wad to do kaes ..
wadeva u tink or feel is ur business .... i dun nid to knw anything
cox it doesnt concern me ...
it just gets so irritating ...
grr ..

having a bad headache and fever now ...
haishh ..
feeling so sick ..

`u the hypocrite

2005-02-20T14:09:00.000-08:00

i just cant stand hypocrites ...
esp.. you ..

so fake for wat ..
den later say one sorry ..
so fake ..

want argue like some childish brat ..
craps manx ..

=) enuff on venting my anger ..
hahas .. have a hapie day ; everybodie

oh yesh!! its SIX more days !!
*hintsssss*

im bored ! `

2005-02-20T12:54:00.000-08:00

just feeling kinda bored ... so decided to type sum crap here.. whahas.. tuition is cancelled ... that is so great n wonderful manx ... lolz .. so much work to do but im like ... doing nth .. ?! feeling so stressed inside .. ....

will anyone give me a break ???

was supposed to sleep at ten with gerfren yst ... but den couldnt fall asleep.. was like so tired but couldnt slp.. haishh .. feeling smth wrong inside .. but dunno wads wrong .. tmr im supposed to go see those liars but den i dun intend to.. got their lessons summore but doubt they ll rmb .. so im nt going to see them .. wad else kan they say !?? wadeva they say .. i kan oni reason wid dem but aft reasoning ... dey oso wun care much .. let them tink wad they wan ... for all i care manx !!? anw i left few mths more in gb .. whu gibs a damn ?! haissh ..

thinking of you* ..
will you* ever know that ..
missing you* soooo badly ..

change again

2005-02-19T17:46:00.000-08:00

changed the skin once again ...
summore i just changed it two to three days ago ..
hahas..

but.. the blog is still under construction though ..
haven change the colour and put up sumthings ...
im not free to finish it ..
=)

im thinking and missing ya* loads ...

tinkin n missin ya -

2005-02-19T14:53:00.000-08:00

so tired now.. lolx.. slept late yst.. arnd 3am i think .... *yawns* ... and i woke up cox my phone rang .. hahas arnd 10 plus lar.. so tired .. was like lying there till 11 plus den went to watch tv and eat.. lolz ..

thinking and missing sumone* ...
=))

shall finish some work later..
so sianx ..
i wanna sleep..
haha but wait later ppl say i sleepyhead ..
shall not sleep so much ler..
wahaha *craps* ..

just wondering why life is boring ..
and stressful..
im feeling stress all over ..
sotong asked me yst and it reminded me ..
-Gb. school. studies. and others.
haishh..

to gerfren :
` u ll be the future DI.. hehes you kan sure do well..
all de best .. fran lurves char .. *winks.. ;)

to you :
` yes.. both move on.. thats very good.. so since u ve moved on ..
u should not even be botherin bout anything ..
my blog tts y i write wad i wan .. u kan do so for urs ..
and no one kan comment on that .. =)

im not humilating ya or wad.. just gotta say is that...
why claim i cant let go when its u who brought it up ?!
ve u even checked e post date anot ... and how long alr ...
i ve never mentioned or toked bout ya ..
it shows u ve alr lost tt existance in my life ..
so sorry .. i knw it wun affect ya.. neither it would affect me..
so... yar.. tts bout all..

all de best ....

` borin n childish ppl

2005-02-18T23:14:00.000-08:00

haha.. this is so funny.. did i even say anything bout e past entries!? cheating urself.. i just dun understand why ppl know how to start to scold ppl but den later twist facts n claims others started it.. no guts to admit that ur childish .. haish.. no life out there... dun understand .. why ppl r so free.. hmm and others r forced to entertain? nah is nt forced to entertain... lolx.. no life out dere.. tts all.. if dun care bout anythin den sho jus shut up n not even botherin to start writin those msgs.. and ppl r like forced to reply.. lolx.. how lame kan u ppl be.. say wad we no life!? tink u ppl ba.. haiz start such stupid quarrels..

` fark off

2005-02-18T22:53:00.000-08:00

wahahhas sum pple r just too free.. haha..
heyhey.. yes u kan go ahead and listen to her.. like i care!?
hahas.. oh so sorry im in 2005 nw leh.. u in 1980s ah..
hahas.. i type wad way i like wad.. nt hapie ah!? too bad lor
my blog leh.. i blog wad i want.. u nth to scold ah? kan change topic suddenly..
craps.. haha i like to type FARK leh .. u got a prob wid that!? if yes den too bad lar..
haha i would like to say tt .. ur nt e oni #04 excuse me.. haha ..
yes im scoldin ya.. so wad!? ur business? nah ....
i hate you got a prob? im nt wastin any effort leh ...
looks like u r.. cox u were e 1st to type e msg ..
wanna scold me den pls have sum logic lar..
twisting facts is no use ..
thanks hor.. i wun even get affected by ur words ..
u cant beat her .. lolx..
craps mann..

` FARKERS

2005-02-18T21:44:00.000-08:00

To .. that you .. [zero four]

hey so wad .. u tink u write in frenster very great larh.. eh u check up dictionary wan arh.. wah since u become so "pro" .. oh pls.. u wan scold me ah.. why not u check urself out!?? u got check out urself b4 even sayin me !!? i knw u noe wad i wrote.. so wad!?? im nt denying.. yes i am tellin u here.. u SUCK.. wad the fark do u wan from me manx .. haha ask me to move on !!? eh .. i tink e one stayin in e past is you lar pls.. move on!!? haahaha... oh so sorry i moved on long ago le lehx.. duno wad u wan lor.. too free ah .. come tel me such farkin stuff.. haha damn funny.. will i get affected!? nah ... tot u told ur buddy tt u duno me ler? hmm duno me den still kan tok so much cock ah!? pro lar you... hahah say wat i hate you is wrong!?? eh i hate ppl hor.. dun nid reason one de.. so sorry i love hatin u leh n tis is my life... i do wad i want.. u wan me to stop hatin u!? wad right do u ve to say tt manx ... ask me to move on.. i tink ur silly n bloody stupid.. wahahas.. anw wad farkin right do u ve to say tt i cant scold u names!? got wrong ah... my mouth leh.. i say wad i want lor.. newae its nt ur business ger .. lolx.. craps manx .. i cant even b bothered much lor.. pls check urself out lar b4 even sayin others .... bloody farker .. wan win pple in scolding .. jus fark off manx ..

oni kan pisst pple off ... `

` iam angryyyyyyyyyyyyy

2005-02-18T21:15:00.000-08:00

im farking pisst off now!!
angry .. angry.. sooo angry ...
wad do u ppl take me for!?
THRICE being fooled by u farking idiots..
last yr held back e rank..
in oct ur say again..
beginnin of e yr ur say AGain !! ..
i promise i change .. wun let any1 down ..
in tis farking one week.. how ve i acted n performed leh ..
ur say me .. u wan strip den strip.. ur got ur faking rights anot!!
i jus wanna slap u farkin officers ...
wad m i manx ..
sergeant rank tt great!!?
each tym i wana gib up.. ppl ask me to go on n prove ..
but wad i get now..
farking officers!! jus wana slap their faces ....
ARGH!!!!! `
FARKERS !! just a bunch of liars ... LIARS !!!
[pisst`]

lots to vent but lazy to type.. im just angry.. arghhh .. nowadays kip reachin central early.. so nice of me.. haha .. sch is so sianx .. had a wonderful slp todaex durin english ... reali fell dead aslp.. den din noe mux hand in e test paper.. wahaha jac also.. damn nice slp.. =) geog was funny cox von n me were playin .. so childish.. wahaha.. drawin on my table.. damn funny lar kanx.. hehes..

almost died thrice todaex.. but nvm just die .. whu cares manx .. 1st and 2nd is cox saw e officers.. 3rd tym was my love sick.. = ( ..missing her* bloody bad !!

aft sch had gb.. okie lar.. not very fun.. had at least 2hrs plus of badge work.. craps manx.. games was slightly fun lar.. char looked so cute as e orderly.. hahahas.. =)

left wid matt dang jaime clarissa ... matt n me almost died.. wahahas.. wanted run aft e 315 .. so we jaywalk den we cross half e road den e other side got car so we duno if to cross.. i wanted run but matt din so i din ... but when i din ..she wanted to so i was like .... oh shit.. and e car was like cuming quite fast den in e end we jus ran across... close manx.. otherwise jus say bye bye.. lolz ...

walked home from cherryhill ... damn tired and hungry ..
haishhh`

a topid farking day ..
im missing and tinking of u badly ...

` missin ya badly sweets

2005-02-17T23:30:00.000-08:00

tinking and missing you* so badly ....
-cries-

living in a world full of selfish people..
the world is changing ..
gotta wake up and move on..
haishhh`

im missing her...

2005-02-17T19:36:00.000-08:00

im tinking of her again..
missing her terribly..
im dying frm love sick lar....

met her for awhile...
arghhh =)))

newae todaex was alright but slightly tiring.. pe was fun!! i like the ball games kanx.. jac chongster joy manda me were same grp lar.. den we had fun throwin it up n dwn.. 1st we were against pui grp den l8r yuen's grp.. haha was damn fun.. like tt tym.. chongster was damn funny when she wanted snatch yuen's ball .. she was like jumpin frm side to side.. her actions was so funny.. =) din go for recess ; went class to study bio wid dang becca von ..

had gb after sch .. tym sure passed SLOW.. aft all e eating , playing , changin n pei-ing dang wid her devt.comm mtg... oni about 45mins had passed.. so joce dang me went canteen o spend our tym away... so sianx..

yuen's joke bout pui was damn funny!! =)

went for prayer cell .. had sum fun lar.. toked to ms koh.. she din understand e games proposal kanx.. haish den i explain till so xing ku ... poor me.. haha.. had drill aft tt.. im damn PEK!! so.... *bang wall* ... haish... imagine 3-4 sec3s .. 2 sec4s .. learning tanda pernanda.. and basic drill .. and ... havin to repeat everythin agn n agn... cox of certain ppl whu dunno n haven learn... of cox its e SEC TWOS.. grrr ... damn pek .. nvm.

went heartland aft tt.. ate kfc .. met rach , val n valen ..
rach is like so damn funny!! kip makin joce n me laugh ..
we were like tellin ourselves .. whu is tt mad ger tokin to ..
den rach was like sayin tt we r so mean.. hahas..
went to buy joce cd aft tt ..
home =)

damn angry n pisst off now! wtf* manx..
cox of sum rubbish things.. cum say me..
farking assholes... !!
grr ..

` i m thinking n missing ya so badly !!!!!
be mine ;

` im sad but happie but yet sad ... sounds contradicting

2005-02-16T22:18:00.000-08:00

im happie but sad but yet again ... im notx.. but den again .. i am ..
hahas.. =) sounds contradicting ... *crapz

newae todaex was alright lar.. skipped pe.. fake sick lor.. hahas.. nth to do actuali.. was bloggin half way den diana had to call n i forgot everythin i was gonna say .. hehes nvm lar.. tt poor ger was bored for an hour plus... hahas so im nice lar.. to pei her talk =)

oh yesh... grace has became my kor !
*whee ~

din go for drill comm meeting today ..
haha all thnx to teresa !! ;)
she claim they ended it so i left lor den i called cheryl n she said its still on...
grrr..

` had a happie tym wid sumone =)

im falling for ya -

im a hapie soul `

2005-02-15T19:05:00.000-08:00

oh.. im sucha happie soul lar kanx .. din mention tt yst was nice .. real nice lar kanx.. when i went to meet dylan.. to collect my vdae pressie..during dinner.. i got to noe a special her* .. dylan's fren lar.. sucha cute n sweet boi.. got a rose .. so nice.. hehes.. gonna treasure it man.. e oni bung tt gave.. hahas .. going sumwhere tmr ! =))

school was alright todaex lar .. cant reali rmb wad happened.. hahas.. time passed slow but kinda fun lar.. hahas.. thurai and hoho just have pms ~

haish my post is gettin shorter each tym .. cox i cant rmb wad happens in my life.. wahahas.. newae i seen e 4 trs ler .. dunno if i sho find mrs soh and ms chan lehs ... *thinking. maybe i should .. i beta .. by tmr .. hahas cox thur has drill and sharon ll be cuming .. im dead meat.. hahahas..

im tinking of you -
[zeroSIX`]

` its VALENTINE !! =))

2005-02-14T19:26:00.000-08:00

HAPPIE VALENTINE EVERYBODIE !! `
[imLURVINGyou`]

whee* ~ im neutral actuali.. not liking anybodie.. woo hooo. =)))

alrights just came back home not long ago.. um went bishan wid mummie to get sum gifts for those whu i owed.. wahahas.. happened to meet er zi der den l8r saw birdie.. hehes.. hiazz .. im chao broke alrightsss.. =(

newae school was okae lar.. exchanged so many gifts.. wah lao.. hahahas.. but it was alright lar.. thnx dear and those whu gave.. hehes =)

talked to mrs ong and ms ho todaex...
` mrs ong - niceeeee =)
she just say ok all the way.. never complain bout anything.. wahahas. thats so nice..

` ms ho - niceeeee alsooo =)
she just say i beta promise her and just tok bout my skirt and i told her i promised sum tr i will lengthen.. wahahas. thats so crap..

im done wid my job.. actuali i haven tok to ms ting , mrs soh and ms chan ... but they are small frys.. oops.. haha but the trs r all nice except for tt bitch lar! spoil my day.. hehes. =)

im contented`

anyone ?

2005-02-13T20:20:00.000-08:00

i wonder why people only tend to regret after they have done those wrongs ..

toked to sumone jus nw .. she helped me to kai jie .. it reali helped alot ..
for once sumone could share the same opinion as me ..
i knew wad was going on all along but i just din wanna tell anyone but at least tt person tot e same way as me.. hmm i dun nid to tell anyone wad is going thru my head .. i dun wanna care ler.. seriously i dun wan .. anymore .. there is a limit to everythin .. and i ve passed this limit .. im tired of all tt is going on .. all those probs i have revolving arnd me .. i jus wanna be a happi soul..
be carefree and ignore everythin tt is going on .. liddat life ll be a lil better .. =)

jacx just called .. disturb me only.. now i forgot wad i was gonna say.. topid fellow.. hahaa newae im towning tmr i guess.. whee* ~ hahahas.. =) so fast one year pass le leh ... fasttttt`

im supposed to be studying but im like lazing arnd all day..
haishh ~

the past is smth u gotta forget ;
the present is smth u gotta face ;
the future is smth u gotta wait ..

took this from sumwhere.. wahahahas.. =)

wanna change template but just too lazy ...
anyone so free to help me ?!
HAHa`

im hungry people !! `
haish ..

its another day `

2005-02-13T13:21:00.000-08:00

slept at 2am yst .. haha kinda fun cox i wanted do hwk but den was too lazy so i was tokin crap to sum pple online den later everyone go sleep ler den my big meanie also wanna sleep but i dun let her .. i ask her pei me do hwk .. haha den she kip sayin she wanna slp den i kip tellin her dun ; otherwise may die in her sleep .. haha den tink she miss me too much [bhb] so aft sayin all e goodbyes.. she suddenly say she dun wan slp.. so she pei me tok till 1am den i do my wrk n tok to her.. den i do finish ler so i ask her go slp but den she din wanna slp n she was oso doin her hwk .. how crap !! i ask her slp den she dun wan .. den i pei her lor .. at e same tym do another set of hwk [ english ] .. den later i do finish ler .. she still haven done.. so she decided nt to do den we crap till 145am liddat den we both go sleep ler.. wahahas. jus so lame.. but im happie lar cox at first we kinda quarrel but den later okay ler.. *whee ~ [[`smallMeanie.LURVES.bigMeanie`]]

now still kinda tired ... woke up at 9+ kanx.. dunno wads up wid my brain.. hahas.. *yawns* .. supposed to buy smth but no one pei me go den supposed to go eat wid parents at yishun dere but oso too lazy go.. haish.. been watchin tv e whole mrng .. supposed to study n mug for bio and chinese but im like .... lazyyy !!! i also haven do e gb proposal for games.. tats so sianx and boring.. lucky the tr in charge is no longer tt bitch!! wahahahs.. rejoice manx.. hahas.

im so tired but no choice i have to mug tis time ..
but i dun tink i kan pass bio anyway .. hahas..

`im hungry again -

haisx

2005-02-13T00:47:00.000-08:00

why is the night alwaes more sad ?
feelin more lonely ?
hmm...

tinking of you `

tears whelm

2005-02-12T23:42:00.000-08:00

tears filled..
im feeling lost in my thots..
hearing to sum song..

i just wanna noe ;
when will you appear

i need a shoulder now badly..
cries.`

feeling so terrible now..
waited all along to cross this path..
haishh~

` farked up

2005-02-12T20:00:00.000-08:00

i dunno wad e farking shit is this coming to manx ..
why ask bout the changes ..
as if you r not responsible for anything ..

farked up lar kanx *

wad r you thinkin ..
thinking of wad shit ..

FARKED UP
FARKED UP
FARKED UP

~ wad the fark is the world coming to manx !!

why say miss ;
why say love ;
why say all e farking shit ;
when in e end ...
the final statement is " why bother "

disappointed .
hurt .

you just spoilt my farking mood !!
* PISST. -

just get out of my farking life ..
im so disappointed ..
now is not you disappear ..
is ME .

the family no longer exist in me ;
hatred filled ....
WHY ! WHY ! WHY !
[ *PIsst.- grr. ]

` i need ice water to cool me down !!
~ arghhh ..

` im angry

2005-02-12T10:32:00.000-08:00

im not a tool for you to play with ..
farking ass ..

just go ahead and disappear ..
as you wish ..
*PISST !!

wad else kan you do besides jumping to conclusions !??
nth else but jus jumping to conclusions..
wad the FUCK !!

arghhh ....

` BLOODY FUCKED UP !

2005-02-12T10:05:00.000-08:00

IM BLOODY FUCKED UP !!!
DUN COME AND GO AS WHEN YOU LIKE !!!
IM PISST !!!

WANNA LEAVE DEN LEAVE !!
FARKING ASS !!

ARGHHH ~

` headache leh !!

2005-02-11T19:43:00.000-08:00

hmm.. todaex is oni e 3rd day of new year and i ve to go school.. siannx..
but it was fun !! wid just 13 or 14 ppl arnd ..
[HAHA!!]
erm wad sho i start wid ..

first .. i toked to e trs .. but not all .. oni two !! haishh ~
tt damn bitch and ms koh ..

- that bitch sux mann ..
act like she is e head of the whole school ..
first she act like she is so busy den i cant even say a word to her..
my foot ah.. act as if she so BIG !! .. oh pls..
ask me to smile more wen i see her .. she ownself neva smile ..
show me sum chao lian den ask me smile at her .. siao zha bo ..
den i say sorry ler ; she still ques me and all .. bitch leh !!
no wonder ppl dislike her so much ..

- miss koh was okay lor.. so much beta !! =)
she just say bout my attire .. at least she gibs me a smile and dun tok sarcastic words like sum bitch! she jus say ll watch me frm nw on .. hmm jus hope kan go for e conference thingy in june or wad??! hmm .. *AIM for that* =)

next i have to talk to miss ho.. arghh ~

secondly .. thu-thu .. was FOOLED !! wahaha.. we all were playing in class .. den l8r gonna be her lesson tt tym ; we lock e door den wen she came .. we act quiet n she tot we all nt in class so she waited outside like a fool !! den we were all peeping at her frm inside den l8r meihui go open e door den we all act like whole class slping den she cum in n scold but we fake slpin den l8r yuen pretend ask us wake up.. [HAHA!!!] den thu-thu was angry n mad .. den she ask us go wash face but we went toilet to laugh like siao.. haha..

next .. ong ong change for the better .. think mrs wong or who told her ; i think .. den she msged jieying tt day n ask isit 4d2 hates her !?? den jY say yes.. den she told jY she ll change den todaex got sweets n music on .. no drawing !! =))))) just do sum plannin .. was kinda nice.. at least she dun chase ppl 4 sketches ler.. tts so irritating .. at first sha yuen pui jac me all dun wan go for art den we were like actin its doom ... hahaha but den 3periods passed fast .. hehes.

lastly .. im tellin everyone .. my "ex wife" .. FARISHA .. is a BIG horrible bully !!
just cox von neva cum den she bully me all day ..
i say i headache n head spinnin den she ask jac .. "u kan see her head spinning?" ..
pig rite.. haha den wadeva i say.. she purposely tok opposite..
sucha horrible ass .. HEHE` oni has her baby in mind..
still ask me to call her baby .. siao zha bo ..
but e more i say "her baby" .. reali kan get goosebumps lar kanx
haha.. and she says im topid .. lauren [BIG BIG BIG MEANIE] also says im mad ..
just cox i say let fate decide .. haha.. they r siao ppl whu calls innocent sane ppl like me .. [siao.]
HAHA`

tmr supposed to go to chen lao shi's hse but siannx lar..
so not going ler .. =) dang n von also not going ler ..

im so tired !! ~tired tired tired ..
shall go watch tv !!
yst tt show last esp so bloody nice lar kanx.
hehes ..

im not thinking
im just dreaming
im gonna live my life tis way

` hating U !!!

2005-02-10T09:54:00.000-08:00

back to say once again ..

im hating your words ..
now is just me and you ..
no longer us ..
im hating you ..
pls rmb that ..

say i hurt you wid my words ..
check out ur own words first mann ..

im learning to be happie ..
you r not the one ..
im hating ur words mann ..
but i ll overcome it soon ..

~ disappearing once again ....

` back for a moment or s0

2005-02-09T21:33:00.000-08:00

back awhile just to say ..

treasure what one has and never regret ..
things lost will never be back again ..

happie new year everybodie ..
=))

gonna disappear from ur life ..
gonna disappear for sum tym here ..

farewell ~

` disappearing -

2005-02-08T14:15:00.000-08:00

` disappearing for the time being ......

` faker

2005-02-08T12:24:00.000-08:00

i knew it from the start ..
dun say u r different cox u r not ..
u r e same ..

just a faker and a liar ..
i dun believe in forever ..
dun ask me to cox u cant even show or prove that i must ..

i knew ppl kan get over ..
and u r one big example ..

farking ass ! ~

` sad

2005-02-08T12:17:00.000-08:00

` tears fall .....

i wanted her to hate me ..
i wanted her to give up ..
but never did i knew it would affect me either ..
= ((

now .. i cant hang on anymore ..
just gonna pick myself up and move on ..

school sucks ..
the cny celebrations were boring ..
and piggynut was bullying me all along ...

STUPID CHENG JINHUA !!
hahaha =))

oh ya.. i dislike LUI PUI LING !!
she is a PIG who bullies me ..
=)) hehehes..

went serangoon mac aft school ..
nice meal.. hehe *full* .. =))

toked to sharon on e phone ..
i tink toking on the phone is beta than face to face ..
at least i could show any reaction i wanted ..
she wans me to apologise to all e trs i offended n ask dem for another chance ..
wat the ...
imagine going up to trs n saying tt ...
maybe they ll tink im mad lar kanx ..
hahahas ...
Btw ; i dun even know whu i offended lar kanx ..
haissh ...

im gonna forget all troubles and live a happy life ..
no one ll understand ..

To: sumone [ u sho noe whu u r .. ]
` same treatment as you did to ur past ..
nothing surprising ..
hate me den ..

im loving you.
oni you wun hurt me.
be mine ;

` SHE CAME !!!

2005-02-07T22:48:00.000-08:00

SHE CAME ONLINE !!!
SHE CAME ONLINE !!!

waahahahaas ....
im the happiest soul arnd manx ...

but the sad thing is ..
she din notice my nick nor did she tok to me ..

nite stead n dang ask me tok first ..
ahhhhhhhh ...
i DUN dare !!

i did that before ..
that was like so scary !!
ahhhhhh ...

kan anyone save me !!!
im like dying any moment ..
oh my god .. ~

im thinking of you *
im missing you *
its just that special n unique you *

be mine ;
im gonna love you *

no matter how pain it is ...
or how much it is gonna take ..

arghhh i cant live without your love ..
be mine ;

` topid !!

2005-02-07T21:06:00.000-08:00

sum pple r just too freeeeeee !!!!
go ahead n spread lorrrr ..

~ lalalalaa ..

nothing kan affect me..
wahahas ..

u r not as famous as u tink u r .. ger .. !!
not many ppl like u either ..
=)))

im a happie soul ..
at least i dun seek attention unlike sum ppl ...

` nth much ..

2005-02-07T19:17:00.000-08:00

ppl out there !!

REGINA IS MEANIE !!!
=)))

its just another normal day.. woke up early todaex .. hehs.. but jaime they all were late .. all thanks to von tan !! hahahas.. make me walk all e way to 7-11 jus to meet them but lucky i could buy my dear a lolli .. hehes..

eh dear .. wad flavour do u like ah !!?
tell me den next tym i noe wad to buy !!
hehes =)) anw tc of ur health .. dun fall sick during cny ..
i love ya..

kept nodding off todaex ..
and my heart is so pain ..
ppl kip tokin bout my forty bucks ..
all thnx to dear lar ..
topid pigggg ~

dear went home half way den i loner but i was having fun di-siao-ing sum pple ...
i know tt ass hole idiotic pig ll be reading tis ...
hehes ..

i HATE puiling !!
she is a PIG !!

=))))))

i kept laughin during chinese for no reason den von n tt idiot pig dun wan help me write e word on e board den tt topid pig go draw a line across my ans so i went to name tt LINE .. "puiling".. den i erased her ans .. haha den she came up n erased e LINE n my ans .. den i rewrote n erased hers n den she came up n wrote it back ... so lame !!!! ~ wahahas.

michelle said sum idiot broke my pressie.. sad*sad* ...
anw i din get a chance to pass u a lolli ... =))

cant reali rmb much in school todaex lehx ..
tmr end early .. going for breakfast wid von they all ...

7-11 din sell my sandwiches todaex !!
no lunch ... poor me !! =(

came home to slp!! so nice n shiok ...
jus woke up.. wahahas ...

To: sumone . [u sho noe whu u r..]
` thnx for tt choco n msgs .. where ever u go .. i ll alwaes rmb u de .. thnx alot .. =)) anw topid gerfren mux ve given u my add rite !!? hehes.. nvm jus wana say THANKS .. happie CNY !! =)) takkaire of urself at where ever u r going .. *LOVES. ~

To: sumone i ve been waiting for so long ..
` u neva came online .. its either u din or i missed seeing ya.. hmm missing ya lots .. needs ur counselling once again .. *loves. -

` BORED

2005-02-06T15:33:00.000-08:00

my heart is so pain over the forty bucks lar kanx !!
i just wanna cry ..
*heartPAIN*

i paid forty bucks for a shorter topid fringe and to see a yan dao ..
waahahahas ..

just kill me pls ..
*argHhhhhh*

im so bored NOW !!

bored !
bored !
bored !

thinking of my FORTY bucks ..
and YOU !!

YOU !
YOU !
YOU !

im so sadddddd !!
*cries.

i guess i just love toking to myself ..
kan anyone save my hair plssss !??

` be mine pls .
im gonna be loving you forever .

` up still ...`

2005-02-06T01:22:00.000-08:00

im up still ..
just now was waiting for the topid com till i fell asleep lor ..
so now no longer tired ler ..
wahaha ..

very long neva stay up till so late ler..
now i ve another chance.
haha so crap.
=)

decided to blog to say ..
i MISS sumone ..
haha!!

im so bored.
bored.
bored.

im thinking of you .
you .
you .
you .
YOU !! **

pls be mine ;

`a hair cut !!

2005-02-05T21:10:00.000-08:00

` got a hair cut again !!
HEHE`

but my hair has not much difference actuali.. wahahas. and it costs forty bucks. wat the ..... cox todae no student rate mahx n its cny period. haix !! *heart pain. and my mother is like so angry kanx. cox it has not much difference as i din cut my length. jus cut e fringe shorter. hehes. and thin dwn. =))

btw ; im BROKE !! =((

shopping for v'dae pressies r so ....
i dunno how to say..
fun but my wallet has holes alwaes ..
hmm ..

i decided to save !! *whee ..
im sucha good good ger ..
hehes.

i din see her for sum time alr ..
tats sad huhx ..
haix ..
missing n missing her ....
i jus kept chanting her name to mummie.
wahahas ...

btw i find tis fellow real cute ..
and he jus kept tokin to me ..
*oops. hahas ..
love love love AGAIN !!
he is real cute larh kanx !!
HEHE`

its all infatuation thou ..
its okie ..
its nice n fun crushing ..
wahahahs .. =))

my legs hurts after all e shopping n walking ...
*pain. pain. -

` im thinking of youuuuuuuuu * ~